Posted: Fri Oct 16, 2009 12:43 PM CST
Sick Of Being In A Relationship..
I know people are probably bored of me complaining about things, and im sorry if your one of them :)
Just lately, ive been so bored of being in a relationship. Ive been with my boyfriend for 4 months, sure we've had so many tiffs (arguements) and stuff and i have split up with him for a brief amount of time but i always go back to him and im never really that firm and say no. At the worst of times i actually dread seeing him, like this weekend i dont know if thats normal not wanting to see your boyfriend every weekend.
Maybe, theres just too much soppy sh&t in the relationship. He always says love you and im usually qute hesistant to say that until i really mean it. If we did break up i think id just miss him spoiling me as he buys me whatever i want, i know people are going to see me as being with him for materialistic reasons but that wasn't the case.
I know i was so happy when i finally got a boyfriend, but i just feel like after a month or so the novelty of being taken wears off a lot. I know we we're suppost to be sorting a flat out together but i dont think i want to get a flat with him let alone be in a relationshop with him.
I like relationships, but when you've had so many people in your life it just warps you a lot. Like i still miss my ex and we split up 7 months ago and i just cant stop thinking about him, i have a crush on an emo guy who strings me a long none stop and life seems pretty boring from there on. I think if this relationship doesn't work out i want have another one until im 21 (next year lol 
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Im so stuck for somewhere to turn, so i decided to turn to the people of CS..Since usually people have some pretty constructive thing to say =]
Thank you again for listening to my drawl (=
Much Love
- Brunetteteen18 
Posted: Sun Oct 4, 2009 11:12 AM CST
Posted: Mon Aug 24, 2009 1:26 PM CST
Goddamn It Im Angry!!
I don't know where to start.
I haven't really updated here in months mainly because no one really reads these things i guess 
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Okay, why am i angry (again)?. Simple, my boyfriend was taking me to see a New Found Glory concert but has just revealed to me that he'll be working that night and has sold the tickets to his friends and those guys are my favourite band so im super pissed about that 
Secondly, a guy i used to meet and hang out with sometime has just asked me if im coming out for a bit, and theres a bit of history with us, as he told me he liked me a year ago and because i was messed up i rejected him and then he shouted at me and ignored for like a year and today he's only just asked me that question and said no because i have a boyfriend, and true to my word ill never meet another guy off the internet until (god forbid) we split up, which i dont think will be for a good while yet i hope. We've already been together for 2 months now and i know thats pants compared to some peoples relationships that span years, but to me its an achievement because ive never had a boyfriend be as nice to me as this one is lol
I go back to college for my induction in a week and 5 days and im not looking forward to it, ill more than likely be in the mature class with all the old woman, and im not gonna like it one bit as their all probably gonna be married and have kids and i cant join in their conversations because ive got neither yet..
So im none to happy about that at all, i want to be in a class full of my own age, because im 20 years old they see me as a mature student and im not really, i still laugh at stupid things and have a bad attitude usually like a teenager..apart from im not one anymore
Well, im sure no ones going to read this but if you do then awesome and thanks :)
Much Love
- Brunetteteen18 
Posted: Wed Jul 22, 2009 2:42 PM CST
The Big Squeeze..
Well, haven't updated here in a while so i thought id stop by. First things first..Me and my boyfriend are doing pretty well at the moment, he had to go to court today because his step parents we're suing him for damages and stuff and they found him not guilty so im happy about that and so is he 
So whats with the title you may be asking?, My uncles wedding is in 17 days and we had a dress rehearsal last Sunday and to my great upset my dress was very tight on my stomach, i felt so awkward around my cousin who is literally straight up and straight down theres hardly any shape to her, funnily enough i envy her because she can wear anything and not be concious of her stomach or how big her ass looks in things..So im now on a diet for the remaining 2 weeks and 3 days and im not sure if i can hold it together, i have been coca cola free (we're talking full sugar coke) now for about 2 days and i really do miss the stuff..Diet coke tastes like sh*t so i dont fancy downsizing to drinking that..I dont like water..so really im very picky when it comes to drink, i love coffee but thats not very good for me either so im definitely stuck up shit creek as far as my diets concerned, but everythings going great despite it.
Sunday, was just horrible despite trying my dress on and feeling like a tent i really do think my family are falling apart over this whole wedding fiasco!!. My mother made the massive mistake of staying for dinner that day at my uncles i hated every second of it, lets just say he's no gordon ramsay when it comes to kitchen duties .. My aunty was a complete and utter cow to my mother the whole time and im so paranoid because im not exactly the most social person there. I think they we're talking about me when they went into the kitchen for a smoke, my cousin usually will sit down and talk to me and she just ignored me for the whole visit, i felt awful!. What the fuck is with my family?..Their all so dysfunctional and fucked up!, usually im stunned im related to them really i am! they make me that furious lol .. Im just hoping all this will blow over after the stress of the wedding has died down and the wedding's done and completely outta' the way!
So without boring everyone with my family shite!, thank you for reading my blog (the people who are actually interested in these lol)
Much Love
- Brunetteteen18
Posted: Tue Jul 14, 2009 2:21 PM CST
Posted: Thu Jul 9, 2009 2:56 PM CST
Giving It Up..
So, after weeks of alot of thinking. Ive decided to take a massive step and try and quit smoking, i know its going to be tough and there are times where i probably will crack but as long as i can cut down then im all for it, but if it doesn't work its a sign im not ready and i need to wait until theres next to no stress in my life :)
I haven't been doing much today, ive been with my boyfriend from 12 this afternoon until 7 tonight and i had such a great time its like everytime we meet we have so much fun and a really good laugh with each other and then when i have to leave him it hurts for some strange reason..Is it really love?
Well, ive got a story to tell about the other day. I went out again to my boyfriends city for the day and we just hung out and the clouds looked awful, they we're definitely storm clouds and i have a phobia of thunder and lightening..yes at 20 years old i officially have the wimpiest fears still lol . So anyway, it began to rumble when we we're walking home and he held me really tight, it started to rain really heavy when we got in the house, and i was just watching tv and there was this really loud bang, and lightening and it was like it struck something and i got so scared and i began to cry (i know im sad lol), he was great with me and held me really close, and told me everything was going to be alright..I dunno' i just have a horrible phobia of storms, as well as heights!..But i found that really touching because none of my other boyfriends really cared for me when i got scared of storms they'd just tell me to stop being stupid. =\
And he brought me a bear yesterday, and he gave me so many romantic guestures i couldn't believe it lol!. I haven't stopped smiling since i met him and thats nearly a month ago on the 14th July..
And whats better?, he's taking me to the leeds festival next year and he's taking me to go see our favourite band Bullet For My Valentine in November and he's paying for both i just cant believe it, finally im happy for once instead of boring everyone by moaning about my love life being on the rocks
Thanks for reading my blog and i hope i haven't bored any of you :)
Much Love
- Brunetteteen18 xxx
Posted: Sat Jul 4, 2009 4:18 PM CST
Just Like Before The Chaos..
Well, i haven't updated here for a few days and im sorry about that. For once im not stuck in the house feeling sorry for myself now i have a boyfriend!.
My birthday was good, i spend the whole day with my boyfriend and he gave me a necklace thats made of silver and has 12 diamonds in it and i was speechless. And i know this seems a bit soon on in our relationship but i even picked out my engagement ring when and if were still together when im 21, its costs £1,295 and has a load of diamonds in and its my favourite colour..pink
Ive been in my boyfriends city all week, ive met all his family and they are all truely lovely people, everyone from his step siblings to his grandfather :) and they all seem to approve. He's met my mother and father and my brother and they all seem happy so far so it feels like a smooth sea finally nothing seems to be going wrong yet and im very happy which i cant believe lol!
It seems finally that all the frustration and anger that ive felt for so many years has just washed away with my new boyfriend, he lets me do what i want and dress how i want to dress and he understands me, the other day we just sat down and talked to each other for an hour about our pasts and i just seem a lot more less stressed about things now ive told him about everything thats ever been bothering me, i wish i met him sooner
He's taking me shopping on Tuesday im so excited because ive spotted these Vans checkerboard slip ons in pink that ive had my eye on and ive got a feeling he's going to buy them for me when he takes me shopping, he wasn't happy today because they changed his payday from Saturday to Monday so he's not a happy bunny bless him =)
Lol. dont you just love it when you see an ex when your finally happy with someone else?. Hahaha! i saw mine driving by just as i broke out of a kiss with my other half hehe he didn't look best of pleased i just smiled at him and we just walked across the road hand in hand much to his displeasure..Creep :D
So now im quite tired and have no idea what to say now these things just keep getting shorter since i have nothing to moan or bitch about hehe =)
Thanks for reading my blog
Much love
- Brunetteteen18
Posted: Sun Jun 28, 2009 10:53 AM CST
Getting Old..
So everyone probably knows im 20 tomorrow, i know people say 20's nothing and that the time seems to fly by after your 21..To be honest im not looking forwards to my birthday, it just feels like all the other years apart from im getting less this year.
With my mother not working because her arsehole of a boss made her redundant in March i think..Now i wont a proper birthday because of him and that makes me so mad!! .. that and with all the credit crunch shite going on it makes it harder, i know my dads finally ordered my pink guitar it should get her for Wednesday (2 days after my birthday) and thats took up half my budget its my fault i suppose, i just have expensive taste for gifts lol
Then i have my boyfriends presents, which im eager to see because he's brought me so much stuff, i know one thingd Jewellery because i saw the little bag, i dunno bout the other 3 presents though!, yeah thats not an error he actually did buy me 4 presents..Bless him :D
I had such a good day yesterday, i went to see my boyfriend for a while and we walked around sat in the park, talked and just had a laugh. I feel im falling for him because he's just so easy to talk to and most of all he understands me and he hates my ex which is another upside for me we have another thing in common haha!. We both like the same music, we're both the same ring size on our middle fingers and our ring fingers..we're both a Q..Now that is freaky
My mothers making me a cake too, im allowed to help with the cake itself but im not allowed to see the icing and decoration its a big suprise she tells me so i cant wait to see what she comes up with =)
So now im officially out of things to say, which i know your all thinking is a rareity for me haha :)
Thanks for reading my blog :]
Much love
- Brunetteteen18
Posted: Wed Jun 24, 2009 3:46 PM CST
Countin' Down the Days..
It feels like im a kid again, keeping count of the days until my birthday, call me sad but i guess im still a kid inside this teenage body (I cant say teenage after 5 days can i?)
Today was warm!, very warm...so warm i got burnt and i couldn't feel it but im feeling it now as my arms are so warm its unreal and im beetroot red. I spent the day down by the resivoir near where i live and we walked around for a while so i was in the sun from 11am this morning until about 7 tonight! and i didn't even know i was burning, and i have the crappiest hayfever going!
So now its only 5 days until my birthday and im getting really excited as my parents are buying me a pink guitar that ive wanted since i was 17 and finally their giving in and buying it me, how do i know?, they told me lol! and then theres my boyfriends present which he reckons cost him a lot of money and now im mulling over in my mind what it could be but i have to wait until Monday unfortunately.
He's waking me up early!!, he wants to see me at quarter to 10 in the morning and we all know im not an early bird person id much rather sleep all day than get up really early, so im not going to be in the best of moods when im tired so i think im going to be drinking loads of coffee to perk myself up a bit more :P gotta love it!. And then my friends are coming over for a drink and they've probably brought me a present too and i want to see what those are too but no one tells me what they've brought me so i give myself headache thinking what it could be 
I really do need a new phone it bugs me!, apart from the phone i want costs £300 near enough so my parents wont buy it me :(, my boyfriend has one so he said when he gets his new phone i can have his samsung tocco :D..cant wait hehe!..
June seems to have gone by really fast, i can remember my friends party on the 13th, and then at the blink of an eye it was my dads birthday on the 19th and then another blink and its mine in 5 days, and then on the 18th i finished college until september!, Im scared incase i get put into a whole new different class with the older woman because i like my comfort zone where there are people my own age!, I know my legal class had a few older woman in and i couldn't really join in with any of their conversations as they we're all married and had kids and then there me who's got neither of those, how do they expect me to manage with no one i know around...Without them i just turn into this recluse and go into a corner and keep myself to myself which i know i shouldn't do..Guess thats what i did in school so im very paranoid of people..i know how mean they can be.
So on the upside, im very happy at the moment it finally feels like somethin's going right for once (:
And on an even bigger note, im ending my blog haha!..Because ive rambled loads..Its like one i start i can never shut up haha
Thank you for reading my blog =]
Much Love
- Brunetteteen 18 (Danielle x)
Posted: Mon Jun 22, 2009 11:54 AM CST
Why Am I Sad For?..
I know i shouldn't be sad right now on account of finding myself an okay boyfriend, but my mind just feels so horrible right now.
My phone really does suck, so i end up getting texts from Saturday today?..it really does bother me 
. So anyway back to the story, my ex sent me this massive essay message saying i had deceived him..He knew i had a boyfriend?. And he said that he never wanted to speak to me again and that he could finally move on and give someone worthy his affections, to be honest i dont think anyone will ever live up to his expectations as he was always trying to change me and he was never really that affectionate towards me, if he does actually get affectionate towards someone god help her is all i can say. Or i hope she gives him V.D or stamps on his balls!..Grrr he's made me so mad!, and thats why im hurting, oh and he called me like 5 times this afternoon, last call was 1.16pm..Dunno what he wanted though..
But i know deep inside i shouldn't hurt as thats a good sign he's out of my life for good, but half of me still wants to talk to him and see him!!, my minds driving me crazy!, i love my new boyfriend and thats the end of it and nothing going to wreck him not even some spiteful shit of an ex!
I know he's not worth me getting my blood pressure up about, im seeing my boyfriend this Wednesday and if the weathers nice we're having a picnic in the local park so fingers crossed for nice weather!.
My birthdays 1 week today 
and im getting my pink guitar when my parents order it for me, my friends and boyfriend are coming over and we're going shopping with the money ive saved when i was at college so its going to be a very entertaining day to see what my boyfriend has brought me as he tells me its a lot of money whatever it is
So without rambling anymore than i already have!, thank you for reading my blog =)
Much Love
- Brunetteteen 18 