Posted: Wed Sep 3, 2008 8:52 PM CST
Cursed
I don't think I'm going to find what I'm really looking for. Sometimes I feel endless hopelessness.
I just feel like giving up. I'm doing online dating cause I'm too shy in person,plus I don't like clubs,bars,dances,that just not me.
I mainly spend alot of time to myself do to my shyness. Here what I wrote on a different blog:
Being shy really sucks,.....It's really easy for me to type out what I'm thinking,but in person I go blank,plus I have a hard time relating to people,maybe cause I'm so closed off? I wish I could find someone who could really relate to me. Alot lot of people will tell "well get out and make friends" or "stop being shy,or fake it" easier said then done. Noone really knows me,...you have to get in my head to understand me.
Sometime I feel like the most boring person in the world cause I'm so quiet.....I just don't know what to do but to...sleep all day to numb the saddness.........
Posted: Tue Sep 2, 2008 8:39 PM CST
Loneliness
Took some online quiz on loneliness,.......here are my results
The Existential Loneliness Test
"Alienated, badly discontented, and mostly hopeless that things will improve. You're a lonely one. My advice is to take note of your alienation score; it's higher than it could be. Although in one sense alienation is a state in which your interests are not in harmony with others', alienation is also a psychological state in which you have trouble relating to and appreciating your world. Some aspects of your world are probably better not appreciated, while others maybe are. Nonetheless, working to transform the mind -- and/or meeting someone who understands you and shows you love -- can relieve you of a lot of alienation, thereby reducing your feelings of loneliness and raising your general level of contentment. Once this takes place, you may also find yourself more sociable, perhaps because you have less to lose by being social, since you're comfortable in the world without an additional friend."
I took another one:
"Your LQ score is a bit on the higher end, meaning you've got some issues that need to be worked out. We will examine them and then suggest possible remedies. One of your weak points is the situation with your friends, who are one source of your loneliness problem. This is an area that needs attention. Thankfully, your family is not a source of loneliness for you. Sometimes family can put a strain on your life, but in your case things seem to be okay. Your romantic life is, however, not a pretty picture. Significant improvements need to be made in this area to combat your loneliness. Finding a guy who compliments you will greatly reduce your LQ. You have a degree of shyness, so you must try to overcome that in order to bring love and friendships into your life. Complicating the situation further is the fact that you don't live in a good location for finding similar people. You may need to look outside your current area or simply dig deeper. Finally, there are some insecurity issues that you should work out. Improving your self-esteem will help you improve your LQ score."
This is what wikipedia has to say about loneliness:
"Loneliness is an emotional state in which a person or animal experiences a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. Loneliness is more than the feeling of wanting company or wanting to do something with another person. Loneliness is a feeling of being cut off, disconnected and alienated from other people. The lonely person may find it difficult or even impossible to have any form of meaningful human contact. Lonely people often experience a subjective sense of inner emptiness or hollowness, with feelings of separation or isolation from the world."
You can read more here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lonelieness
So yeah there you go.