Posted: Wed May 20, 2009 2:25 PM CST
I've Learned Something
On the 10th May I finally ended the relationship with the guy I met from this site. It was not an easy decision as I really cared about him. When we met things were great we got on well and agreed to discuss problems which we did. Then the texts got fewer and the phone calls were only made if I asked if he was still interested in me to which he always replied yes. I started asking when we could meet again and he always replied soon. A friend of mine not connected with this site suggested I asked if this relationship was going anywhere which I duly did. He said yes and that he'd be down either in the afternoon or evening. I asked him to make it the evening as I was committed to a 9 mile charity walk and he agreed. Anyway I completed the walk, had a quick brownie and latte in the pub and went home to get ready for the date. I waited over an hour and he failed to show up. I text him to ask if he was still coming? No reply. I text again this time asking if he was still interested in me. Still no reply Finally I sent him a text saying that I had wanted the relationship with him but it was obvious by his non attendance on our date and his failure to respond to the texts that he had finished with me. So I said that this time it was over for good. I had tried phoning but it just went to voice mail. I have learned from this and the lesson I've learned is that if a guy keeps making excuses as to why he can't meet a woman and vise versa then they're not interested. I also know what I want from a relationship. Someone who is reliable but most of all honest in that if they don't think it's going to work they will tell me. I will have a lot more respect for an honest person than one who can't even bring himself to text saying he wants the end of the relationship. I changed my profile the next day. I may have hurt for a while but there is no way I'm going to give up looking for that guy to share the ups and downs of my life with. This experience has made me stronger not weaker. I have a lot of love to give to the right guy, a nice ordinary guy who's not perfect but is honest and reliable.
Posted: Thu Apr 30, 2009 12:39 PM CST
Posted: Sun Apr 26, 2009 10:53 PM CST
Something I'd like to share
I belong to a site to do with one of my interests. I was on it last night and came across a story that another member had put in a blog. I'm not saying it word for word mainly because I can't remember it word for word but I will give the basic story from what I understood. Here goes;
A group of former students attended a reunion at their former professor's house. The conversation centred around what they had been doing since they had last seen each other. There were complaints about things that had gone wrong in their lives, some appeared to be jealous of how well others were doing in their lives, the usual petty jealousies and grumbles. Whilst all this was going on the professor went into the kitchen and came back with a pot of coffee and an assortment of mugs ranging from the expensive beautiful kind to the cheap and not so beautiful kind. He told the students to help themselves. When they had done this he looked at them and noticed that they had all chosen the expensive, beautiful mugs and were looking to see if any of their fellow former students had chosen a more beautiful, expensive one than they had. He then went on to comment on their choice by saying that they had all wanted the same thing a cup of coffee which was of the same quality in each and every mug but they had each chosen different mugs and mugs of the expensive kind leaving the cheap ones behind. He continued that whilst there is no harm in wanting the best for yourself at the end of the day the mug is only the thing that the coffee gets put into but it is the same in all of the mugs and that is what life is all about. Basically we all look different but we get out of life what we put into it. That's if I understood the story correctly.
Posted: Sun Apr 19, 2009 12:38 AM CST
Spend a little and smile
When I feel down I do 1 of 3 things depending on whether I have money, time and energy. I felt down yesterday cos I logged onto this site and found a message from a recently made dear friend who had been planning to meet a lady from this site that he really liked and his evening had been ruined by a family member getting drunk and he had to go and pick him up. He ended the message saying that he was giving up and posted it about 30 minutes after I had logged out of the site. He has left the site and I just wished then and still do wish that I had stayed on the site that extra 30 minutes so I could have helped him. Anyway rather than sit at home since I got paid on Friday I went out and spent a bit of money not enough to break the bank just enough on a couple of books that cheered me up. 1 is a book called Reflections by Daisy Seal. It is full of beautiful pictures and phrases. The other one is humorous called Crap Advice by Michael Powell. Here is a couple of quotes from the latter book, I hope it puts a smile on your face as it did mine.
'Eagles may soar but weasels don't get sucked into jet engines'
'Silence a dripping tap by sticking your fingers in your ears'
'To stop ashtrays from smelling, encourage guests to flick ash on your carpet.'
There's a lot more in that book, none of which is meant to be taken seriously.
The other 2 things I do if I don't have the money is if I have the time I go for a long walk to try and sort the problem out on a sensible not so emotional level or failing that clean everything in sight even if it's already been done.
Posted: Wed Apr 15, 2009 11:50 AM CST
Goodbye to a special friend.
A special friend has left this site, one that I made a few days ago and one that I will miss. I only knew orion48 for a few days but he is one of the nicest people I have ever had the pleasure to meet online. He wont be here to read this but those of you who know him off site can you please send him my best wishes and tell him he has taught me a lot in the few days I knew him. I will miss him but he must do what he thinks is best for him.
Posted: Sat Apr 11, 2009 12:23 PM CST
Achievements
I was thinking earlier today about the things in my life that I have achieved. To some people they may seem small but nonetheless I feel proud because they are personal to me and 1 of them is something my late mother said I would never achieve so I set about proving her wrong and succeeded.
My achievements are first and most important having my 2 beautiful children, my daughter who is 23 is engaged, working and has lots of friends, she is also the kindest, sweetest person I know. My son who is 14. He can cook, he cooks pasta better than me, he does his own washing and ironing and he is also a gifted linguist and does especially well in Italian class at school. Secondly when I was 40 years old I got my degree in Social Policy and Admin, I got 2.2. This was the thing that my late mother said I would never achieve. When I started the course I was pregnant with my son, I gave birth in the Christmas holidays and went back to University 10 days later. Another achievement is staying in the same job for 8 years, normally I quit after 2 years through sheer boredom. Over the past 2 years I have achieved self confidence something I never thought I'd have but I got there in the end. My most recent achievement is finding happiness with a guy I met on this site. Small achievements yes but it's better to look at what's been achieved rather than what's gone wrong. Looking at achievments gives that feel good feeling if you know what I mean. Everybody has done something that they're proud of no matter how small.
Posted: Wed Apr 1, 2009 1:59 PM CST
Could it be a possible haunting?
I was talking to a collegue this morning. She was sitting in the staff room by herself when there was a loud knock on the door which then opened and nobody came in. She checked in case someone was playing an April Fools joke on her but there was no one there and no place for anyone to hide. It gave her the creeps. I've had a similar experience except it wasn't a knock. I was cleaning the back corridor early in the morning, only 4 of us in the building the guy cooking in the kitchen, manager in the office and the guy on the till. I saw someone coming out of the kitchen and enter the staff room, thinking it was the manager I went into the staff room to talk to her only to discover that it was empty. I never mentioned it to anyone and it's nice to know that someone new to the job has experienced something shall we say unusual in the building as well as me. Weird or what? 
Posted: Tue Mar 31, 2009 12:54 PM CST
Early Mornings
I usually start work at 7.30 a.m and because I like to arrive early and see what needs doing before my shift starts I usually leave home to walk to work at 5.30 a.m. I love that time in the morning it's so peaceful and since we put the clocks forward an hour it's also dark. If I'm lucky I will see what I think of as magical sights. By this I mean seeing a hedgehog or a fox. More often than not it's usually cats. This morning as I went out of my front gate about 10 feet in front of me there was a fox watching me I started to move it ran and as I went round the corner to leave my street I saw it again still watching me then it ran away and I didn't see it again. When I get closer to work I sometimes see mice they run and hide as well. Mice don't bother me as I used to keep pet rats and to my way of thinking mice are just a smaller version of them. Early mornings are definately my favourite time of the day no matter what the weather.
Posted: Sun Mar 29, 2009 2:40 PM CST
The Cancelled Date revisted
Remember the guy who cancelled the date? He got in touch again and yes I agreed to meet him. Guess what best decision I ever made. He turned up. The date finished a few minutes ago his excuses were genuine and that included the reason why I couldn't reach him by phone and the texts. He's put in more effort into the relationship and what is more he's a fantastic guy. We had a heart to heart and he has basically told me if he does something wrong again just yell at him but to please not walk away. To be honest with previous partners whenever I tried to confront them with whatever was bothering me they'd walk away and not listen. I had basically assumed that this guy was the same, I was wrong. I am now going to have to get used to being with a guy I can actually talk to. My feelings for this guy are great, it's hard to describe how I feel. We have discussed long term plans and he is prepared to wait for the 2 years until my son leaves school so that if we are still together I will give up my job and home to be with him where his business is. I am glad I gave him that extra chance if I hadn't I could have missed out on a special man.
Posted: Tue Mar 24, 2009 1:58 PM CST
A beautiful day.
The sun was shining today and I saw 3 beautiful sights at different times. The first one was when I'd finished checking the toilets at work. I went into the dining area and there was this couple so into each other they were in a world of their own. They were kissing, holding hands and looking deep into each others eyes. I felt so happy for them. With the second one I happened to look out of the window and saw an elderly couple holding hands obviously still close after who knows how many years together. Again I felt happy. On the way home I saw a young couple each pushing a buggy and laughing and talking to each other they seemed totally into each other. Seeing these couples so much in love with each other made me realise that love and romance isn't a dream it's there but it won't come to you you have to look and take the chance and one day strike lucky. I'm never going to give up and I'm going to have fun looking.