Just my lyrics..
Well basically when i get in a shitty mood or when something crushes me badly enough, sometimes i write lyrics, but what i do first is like, i write down a big ass story of what happened, what id write out is fairly full on, alot of people wouldnt take kindly to it.. like for example, one was a full on attack at "god"... but hey, its the emotion i felt at the time.. anyways im gonna throw them up.. dunno why?? i just think gettin them out there might put some things on my mind at ease??
this first one was my big attack on god thing, and the reason i felt so against him was i was suffering depression at the time, and alot of things crept up on me.. and i got a message on my phone that night, it wasnt a good message! and i kinda snapped.. and yeah, i wrote this while stuffin pills down my neck basically!
Kneel by my bed…
I cross my palms and pray…
Seek my answers…
Done my routine, now why does everything remain calm,
Is it some kind of game, or will signs come in your damn time…
Days upon nights…
Seasons have passed me by…
It’s been too long…
No more exceptions, don’t need you now as my witness,
No longer buy the truth from your mislead business…
Am I being ignored from you, what you
Got to hide, tell me or fuck you,
I am soulless, a reject, your empty shell…
I’ve found my path…
I need no trust or crave…
Don’t need your home…
No temptation, got your own list of enemies,
Ain’t you so perfect now, you cant keep me on my knees,
People still reaching out for the truth,
Sorry he’s busy now, don’t want to hear from the like of you…
Your sign won’t come, lights on, no one home,
Isn’t he kind to treat you like garden gnome…
Search high and low, run and walk,
Cant you see it’s yourself to whom you talk…
The clock’s ticked time for your undressing,
Thank you lord…
Your silence has been a blessing…
These second set of lyrics were kind of similar to what maybe some people may have experienced on this site?? you know.. meet a girl or guy on the site, chat away, all is good, maybe you get a feeling your falling for the person?? maybe the other person is falling for you?? and then BANG! the two of ye finally admit ye are fallin for each other!! so you decided to meet up and whatever.. but hmmm, you meet and the other person is so impressed, maybe cause your personalitys a bit differ, but its usually somethin to do with looks, or your a bit smaller or whatever on your pic?? but yeah, same applies for me when i wrote this song one morning in sydney, australia at 3am..
Was it fate?
Was it destiny?
Did the stars make this meeting inevitable?
Will they partner with some force incredible?
Words exchanged, images seen,
Some feelings were made noticeable.
We are both insecure, yours from times that have been,
Mine is a mask that is unshedable.
The warning signs were posted,
Would the gods allow this celebration be toasted.
We are careful with this flame,
If it quenches, I know I am to blame.
This mask is worn with hatred,
It nails my windows shut.
Keeping my insecurities safe,
Leaving my emotions grated.
It took one look to realize,
My mask could not be cut, removed, hid or disguised.
Yes you were wise, yet had no plan,
While your body stayed, your heart just packed and ran.
With every word my mind went blank,
With every glance my confidence sank.
The truth was hard to hide,
Like past experience burns inside.
You slept silently, my mind could not sleep at all.
Each whisper was unheard, pages from the story turned.
Even though there was laughter throughout the day,
My ignorance left this scar to stay.
Fate did not fulfill his role,
This burning flame has now turned cold,
Love was no longer the payers toll,
But is friendship greeting from a cautious meeting?
Some people take heartbreak with a pinch of salt, some people let it build up, some people harm themselves.. this is just one of the ways i deal with it i suppose??