angeleyes61: "Sex just to do it an't where its at for me,I have to be able to look in to his eyes and he look in mine and at that point the world belongs to us and what is happening at that moment.And when it is over we can still lie there and hold each other.It has been a very long time since I have felt that magic and it is mostly because of lack of honesty and respect.If you are only looking for a booty call just tell the truth.You are two consenting adults and yes or no shouldn't be to difficult to say.What do you think.I really would like to know."
I think you are not alone. From reading repetitive forum posts from men and internal correspondence with women on this site, there are many that feel as you do. There are many that are looking for a real connection and bond with someone, not just a fling and sexual self satisfaction. Don't give up your search, there are many people that are looking for honesty, respect, and a real connection first.
I have never gotten involved with a married woman and never will. As a divorcing man myself I have tremendous respect for those who ignore me but also love those who understand me and offer their friendship but keep their distance.
If I may suggest, look for friendship. Keep making connections and socializing with people and look for the men that truly want your friendship. A true friend will accept you for who you are without judgment, will be honest with you and respect you. From this pool of friends a true love can be born and nurtured for a true connection and ultimately a strong bonding intimacy.
Good luck and God bless!!