Posted:Tue Dec 23, 2008 9:57 PM CST
Shine on You CraZy Diamond
There are times in our lives that seem like everything is falling into place. Moments that seem to take over our hearts and our very souls. Strong emotions accompanied by uncontrollable fits of laughter, tears, and solice.
However grand the moment may seem, sometimes, through no fault of our own, it's just not the right time. Not the right time for a change in vocation. Not the right time for a change in location.
If I could pick up and move, I would, but my obligations are here--in Ohio. Too many obligations to leave behind. And it seems that sometimes, there isn't enough time in the day to complete even the simplest of tasks. But I have to be a father, protector and provider--a lover, a partner and a friend. No matter what or who comes and goes during my life's story.
Because that's the journey I'm on. A story. Entertaining, comical, and tear-filled all rolled up into one long rough draft. And I'm still writing it, waiting and hoping for a happy ending.
Pressures and stresses of real life responsibility overload our minds leaving us dizzy, confused, and often times scared out of our minds. These pressures and stresses we face from day to day also leave us with difficult choices to make.
But even through all these stress filled days, we CAN find really amazing people. Amazing and inspiring individuals that encourage us to shine. To release all the things we hid for so long. Locked up personalities clawing at the cellar door desparately trying to break through the darkness, but too afraid to sparkle in the light of the sun. Too fearful of it's blinding rays.
I've found many such individuals, taught me a few things about myself. That I DO have much to offer. That I CAN be myself without fear of judgement. To let the Goose (muncher) come out from behind that locked cellar door and venture into the sunlight.
To SHINE.
And I am thankful to them for that.
I want to burst out of the darkness and into the sun. I want you to run with me through the grass in our bare feet. Lay with me and stare at the clouds and we can find the elephant or the turtle or the giraffe together.
I know my direction now. I'm here to expose my junk. To tell a story, and send a message. If you get it, then you'll "get" me. If you don't now, maybe someday you will.
Put on your sunglasses, it's gonna get pretty fvcking bright in here...........................