Posted:Wed Jan 7, 2009 6:57 AM CST
My sister....
I have not had contact with my sister in quite a few years. However, over the course of the past year, I felt something inside me, needing to find her. But it was too late. It wasn't I that had found her, it was a family member who was searching for me. Searching to tell me, that my sister had passed away. She died of a drug overdose, alone, in her bed. She was only 38. I beg of you, if you ever feel that your life is not worth living, to find someone to talk too. There are many of us here on this site, who will listen, and who know, that there is a better way to live, and how to find true happiness. The road is not always easy, but there are people to help out, along our paths in life. All you have to do is ask. There is never a need to feel all alone in this world. Here is a poem I wrote in remembrance of my sister.
My heart is overwhelmed by the sorrow in my heart.
The emptiness and pain I feel, has so many emotions,Where do I start?
It is not how your life ended that I remember when thinking of you,
It is about 2 little girls playing,snuggling when scared, and our many visits
to the zoo.
A life so tragically ended, everywhere I look you are not there.
I can only look out at my ocean, as my eyes fill with tears and a blank stare.
People say to me, But for the grace of God thats not you.
But what they don't understand ,is that I wanted it that way for you too.
I am learning to accept it, as I go through my day to day life.
All I can think of is the things you havent experienced, and that brings me
the most strife.
If there is one thing I can pass along, to the people who take time to read
this,
It is saying all those things unspoken to one another, and fear not the risk.
I make a pledge to you, to enjoy life best that I can.
And just know even though you are not here,you will always be a part of
who I am.
Lovingly your sister Lori
Goodbye Kandy
December 7,1969-May 8, 2008