Priyam Blog Post: Fri Sep 25, 2009 1:23 PM CST

Priyam Kolkata India
Posted:Fri Sep 25, 2009 1:23 PM CST

This too shall pass!

well, my first ever Online uploading of something personal. But what the heck, who knows me. I am a nobody in this world of everybody who are actually somebody to somebody! (i like playing with words!:P)

23 yrs, done with graduation and back home. Why? Because my parents wants me to live with them. Plus, mom was having a tough time dealing with my ailing dad. He has been ill and in bed for the last 3 yrs now.. which also means no earning at home.. 2 brothers who live away (london and singapore)... i was the generous of the 3 and decided to take the plunge... and NOW... i regret it... but its like choosing the taste of either of the two poisons.. i die in both the situations, by saying "i die" i mean my expectations, aspirations, wants, needs, dreams, all die and on the other hand, if i stay away and let parents be... i die of the guilt of not being with them. Now thsi is just One Part of my screwed up life.

Part two - having been ditched my 5 yr long boyfriend. WHo came an inch away from marriage and suddenly backed out because his Parents said so!!! (yeah its India and it still works that way!)

Part Three - i graduated in advertising and this place has no industry. By place i mean the city i live in. So getting a job has become a herculean task!

Part Four - my dad STILL thinks im 5 yrs old and he baby sits me whenever and however possible. I need to take the car and the driver EVERYWHERE i go. Even for job interviews, they laugh when i get off a big car to get a job! Sucks!

Part Five - NO friends here. ALL normal and sane people have left town for a better life!

Part Six - Dad does NOT lemme out of the house post 8pm. thats the curfew! I mean come on!!!

Part Seven - My life just sucks!

Why am i doing this?

Because every morning when i look at my mom, she smiles. Probably the Only time of the day she does that. And that smile means the world to me.

But yeah, life just sucks. And like a close friend says, "if it cant get worse, it'll only get better" AND "this too, shall pass!"

yeah well, WHEN!!!?

Now is someone listening?! :(

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aeropos Athens, Attica Greece
Fri Sep 25, 2009 2:40 PM CST
Yes I am listening...I was really moved by your letter, I have to say I don't know how good you are in the Advertasing bussiness, but in writing...you create pictures so strong ,full of emotions, harsh shades of grey, sensitive expressional ikons, very simple yet so intense...but don't forget what it seems to apply today tomorrow it will dissapear into past..and you know an old Greek saying..
"When you are down in a well there is no way to go deeper, only up.."
SO DEAR YOU ARE YOUNG PRETTY LIFE IN FRONT OF YOU GRAB IT...
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Kasih Jakarta Indonesia
Fri Sep 25, 2009 6:37 PM CST
I think you need to decide what you want in life and you need to do it fast to prevent further regret and disappointment. . ....
Good luck.teddybear
skibber alanya, Mediterranean Turkey
Sat Sep 26, 2009 12:56 PM CST
Girl,

You have made all the right conclusions and now you have to act on it...

Your mothers smile will follow you anyway so just get out... !

Peter
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selgir gyoma, Southern Great Plain Hungary
Mon Sep 28, 2009 1:16 PM CST
yes, i listening too:) dont matter babe!
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smiling_assasin Incredible India
Tue Oct 13, 2009 12:15 AM CST
wow !!! quite a life u r living here yaar.
I agrees with what most of our other frnds have said here..
but u know what ???

U are at a much better position then most and its not sad,, its a phase which u will crawl out ! - soon.

the only good thing which i can see here is that u r list has agreed to end at part 7"
isnt that good ? imagine if all of others take a chance to list down our so called worst parts of our lives --- i wud be impressed at someone who could conclude with 10 parts professor

i can so very well understand what you mean when u say that everything else disappears into oblivion when u see u r mom smiling... but imagine what u would feel like when u r mom feels proud of what you could achive and contribute to this world if only you could let u r wings take off"
u will do well gal. thumbs up


harsh'

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