kitty01: I just came back from going to my grand daughters party for her last day at school. There were alot of people there but I sat by myself, watched the activities, had cake but talked to no one, not even the person who sat next to me.
I am the kind of person if I am not talked to first will not say anything either. I watched as others were talking like they were all old time friends.
You dear, dear lady. After my own heart. I very often feel like I have to be the 'big'person in friendships, etc... and the one always extending a heart, hand, and help. Don't know why it's this way, just is. Had to get over the feeling of wanting to be the one to BE called, if you understand. Some of us are meant to be the givers, I guess. (I mean no feather in my own cap or rattlin' my own cage by saying this, it's just how I feel. Guess we just have to cowboy up and accept it, sweetie. My heart is with you because I SO understand. We have to be the strong ones in relationships, that's the way it is. Keep being the warm person I can tell that you are. It will pay off in future. Promise.