Amenda: I have lost myself now.
I have no job.
I have no lover.
I have no hope.
I have no ... ...
I am proud outside, but inside I need love, I need help.
I dare not to ask too much from him. What I can do is waiting.
Somebody say I'm intelligent and smait. But i regard myself as a big fool. a usless person. I hate myself, I look down myself, I don't know what I should do now. Maybe I really need to leave here to go to the south to find a job. But a woman in my age is really not easy to find a job in China. What should I do now? Who can tell me what I should do now? I tried so many things but still failed, always failed. I dont' know what I should do now......
Dont ever give up hope & think you have failed far from it. All these things you have mentioned wil happen maybe not straight away but they will do so.
Dont put yourself down either you have so much going for you apart from being a very attractive lady, you are young, intelligent & have a wonderful personality. You may not realise it but I am sure others on here will agree you have touched us with your openess, honesty, warmth & your friendly personality. You have many people on here who do care about you & I guess yes you have to also care for yourself because you are important