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I was living and met this beautiful girl in Longview Washington state when I destroyed everything to be cherished. She let me come live with her and her two and three year old. Her babies began to love me and would sit in my lap, hug and kiss me. I was convinced that this was as close to being a family that I would ever or wanted to ever get...for certain! I tried my best but wasn't completely honest with who I really was, I was an addict addicted to opiates! I was abstinant for quite awhile from drugs before I made the selfish choice to buy some pills and "use" them behind her back. To make a long binge short, she found out and was willing to work with me. Well...I kept using and using going to and completing rehab only to use again. This went on fro about two years before I actually made the choice to leave and live on the streets instead of staying with her an stay clean. It's been about four and a half years now and i'm staying clean but still feel some dull pains from what could or should have been. I take full responsibility for my selfish motives but i'm also conviced that drugs in my case are the roots of all which are evil!