Posted: Sep 25, 2005, 2:42 AM CST
My eyes wander. Yes. Absolutely. Because women are beautiful. I love looking at beautiful things. That has nothing to do with sex. And yes, every once in a while, I'll see a girl who is just so rediculously gorgeous and flawlessly built that I can't help but stare for a moment, and my brain shuts down momentarilly. I'm a guy. That happens at the drop of a dime. I wasn't thinking about sex... I wasn't thinking about ANYTHING. AT ALL. Is that really that hard to believe? lol
But for the record, by that same token, take heart in the fact that I am NOT agreeing with my "walking wounded" breathren here who claim that women who have a problem with us slobbering uncontrollably are hypocritical so-and-so's who are simply insecure and weak... as is very much the impression I got reading a couple of these responses. That's a load. Period. If I caught my girlfriend staring longingly and smiling that devilish smile that lured me in at some total stranger who was built a little more like I wish I was, yeah. I'm sorry. That would irk me a bit. It's not that I'm insecure, but there is a MARKED difference in facial expressions between "Wow, he/she is beautiful" and "god, what I wouldn't give to be doing that..."
That difference may be a fine line, but it's important. Personally, I don't get with a girl if she's not enough to hold my attention FIRMLY. If I'm THAT easily distracted, that I find myself gawking HARD at other girls OFTEN... then I'm either utterly wasting my time with this girl, or I'm a complete mindless selfish waste of space as human beings go. Period. That's all there is to it.
(Insert my apologies for my little novel here)
As far as porn is concerned...
I can't speak for other guys here, because I don't hang out with other guys for the most part. But as far as I'M concerned... I just love porn. No shame at all. Don't care. i LOVE porn. I always have, and I always will. It has nothing to do with "I wish I was doing her"... I can HONESTLY say that I have very RARELY EVER imagined what it would be like to do some girl I saw in a porn. Honestly, particularly if I'm in a relationship, porn serves to inspire my sex life WITH her. I used to LOVE watching porn WITH my ex's, and for that reason. She'd see something, see that it turned me on, and give it a whirl, and, lo and behold, she loved it, as did I. I realize alot of people can't have that kind of relationship, and that truly saddens me. That level of comfort and open sexuality with a loved one is a truly beautiful thing.
What it comes down to for me personally is this:
I love sex. I love having sex, watching sex, thinking about sex... I put my creativity and my all into it, because it's my favorite pastime. And you know what folks? I've never gotten herpes from watching "Innocent Annie 2: The School of Hard *ocks"... nor have I had any girl in a porn my ex and I watched keep showing up at our house and calling us at work because my ex and I spent that evening watching her get crazy in the sack.
Nearly everyone has SOME level of voyeuristic streak in them. Whether they admit it or not, MOST people love sex enough that just watching two gorgeous human beings tearing one another to pieces in the sack really serves for some heavy entertainment value. It's not a matter of CREATING fantasy of someone else.
It's LIVING OUT socially unacceptable fantasies without HAVING to involve someone else. It's enjoying that group fantasy or voyeurism fantasy without feeling a need to ask a girl who's insecure about VIDEO TAPES OF girls, "Hey, do you think we could ask a couple to come screw like dogs in front of us while I hump you senseless?"
Newsflash: If the DVD special features caused an arguement... he's probably not going to feel real open and sharing about what's REALLY going through his mind.
Just a thought.
Quite heartfelt and with sincerest apologies for my endless longwinded droning...
D.