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Ever since I moved in the new house my life has changed forever. Can't even get a job, but I have 4 months as a night stocker working at Lowes. I applied at store's, but some of them are not looking for anyone right now or they just don't want a washed up kid like me. I just want to leave this cruel state and wonder off somewhere. I know I have a purpose, but don't know where to go. My mind tells me to go back to college and become a bodyguard which I want to do. I need a guidence. I need advice of where and how?
I think you have to be a heckuva lot older to be washed up, Stephen. The people above have given some good advice. I'd add -- just take it one small step at a time. Solve one problem at a time. And soon you'll find yourself closer to where you want to be.
I suppose I might draw the ire of some people if I suggested the military as a possible near-future option? (Gulp.)