In response to:
"I should have known it wouldn’t last.
It was too good to be true.
I’ve longed forever to find someone like you.
Someone who made me feel like I really mattered.
You made me laugh.
You made me see beauty in myself.
You made me feel good about myself.
You made me feel real love for another, which I hadn’t felt in a very long time.
You took me on a roller coaster ride.
One with lots of ups and downs.
But like any roller coaster, it was a short ride.
I should have known better.
Your situation at the beginning wasn’t ideal.
But I liked you anyway.
I fell in love with you. Too quickly.
I told you that one of my phobias was love.
Now you see why.
Why the fuck did you get me involved??
I was doing fine on my own (in regards to my heart).
I had given in to the fact that I wasn’t meant to have anyone.
My heart was cold and I was okay with that (it got me through).
You came along and melted it.
Why??
I had a shitty day Friday.
It topped it all off when you told me not to come over.
I understand that you have things to deal with.
You told me you needed to be alone for the weekend.
But you weren’t.
She was there.
All night. I’m assuming in your arms.
Yes, I am jealous. I am angry.
I feel as though I have that right.
You asked me to be your girlfriend.
You told me you loved me.
I asked you if you meant it.
You said it wasn’t something to joke about.
I wasn’t joking when I said it.
Its not an easy thing for me to say and I don’t just throw it out to anyone.
Are you getting back together?
You told me you were miserable for a long time.
Just there for the baby.
Are you going back?
You told me you loved me.
Did you fall out of love with me and back in love with her?
Will you go back for the sake of money?
I want to know what I did to deserve any of this…
I try to be a good person.
I seem to fail at everything I do.
I seem to be a toy that apparently has no feelings.
Can be tossed aside without a thought.
You are not the first to do so.
You will be the last.
I guess I really don’t deserve anyone.
And don’t tell me that I do, and that you just aren’t the one for me.
That there is someone out there for me.
I am so damn tired of hearing that.
So tired of being second best.
So fucking tired of loving someone that I can‘t be with.
Just…so tired…."
Obviously written by someone who became involved with a separated guy who changed his mind and decided to give it another go with his family.. Sadly, I can relate to this as it happened to me many years ago...
Just another one of lifes experiences that we experience and hopefully learn from
Nicely put together though written from the
and also the broken soul...