Posted: Jun 14, 2008, 10:01 PM CST
alright gilly this will explain alot of why I say what I say........ first off I have FAP if you care to look it up
when I was 20 I had a toumer removed when I did they cut off a blood vessel, they did not know for 1 week by the time anyone figured it out 2 feet of my small intestines had died and I had a sever infection, to the point that when I went tothe hosp. they said I was 30 min. from my boddy shuting down. now I know you cant have exact times but to say the least it was dire. I had an emergancy operation, an iliostimy, thought a very bad one saved my life. I spent 2 months in the hosp. recovering from the infection. apon my relese I started having problems and was in and out of the hosp. for the next 1 1/2 years. more in than out. at some time they told me I had another toumer and it was inoperible as they could not find it, basicly... you have 6 yrs. to live have a nice life. at 21. you can immagin how this affected me. I lived like this for 6 months, telling my parents all the things I wanted to do before I died. I can only imagin how this affected them now as I am a parent. anyways I was able to track down the best doctor in the fied of my conditon as see him. all is well now. as much as it can be I still have the threat of toumers and cancer that I think about often but I do not let it control my life.
well thats the short condensed verson but it gives you some insite....... I have stared death in the face and made peace with it. it truly makes life easier not to be afraid of it, dont get me wrong I am not one looking forward to it I still have alot of living to do but I have no fear of death when the time comes.