zdeadmanwalking
bowling green, Kentucky USA
Posted: Apr 4, 2006, 10:58 AM CST
i have been doing for 12 years and believe or not it is by choice.i could be with a woman but i chose not to be.my children takes up most of my time and i do not have time to give to a woman that she will need.
but a man can live without a woman,like a woman can live without a man.
you have to get use to it but it can be done,there are something more important in life than your needs.
my children are more important to me than my needs are,i have been sacrificing my life for my children for the past 12 years.they do not ask to be born and it is my responsibility to take care of them until they are old enough to take care of their ownsevles.
it is also due to the fact most woman do not want to take the time to see the man behind the 5 children in front of the man.they cannot get past the children in order to see what is inside of the man behind the children.
yes i miss having someone in my life but my children will always and forever come first.the only 1 who comes before my children is God for he is the one who gave them to me and they 1 who gives me everything i need to take care of them.
but i do not miss the same thing other man miss about a woman.i miss being able to hold her in my arms feeling her heart beat against my.knowing her heart is beating out love for me,as my heart is beating out love for her.looking into her eyes and saying i love you she knows in her heart thos words are true and they will forever be true.i miss looking into the eyes of the angel that was heaven sent for me.yes all woman are angels even if sometimes they do not act like it.but you have to love them as 1 and treat them as 1.i miss holding her in my arms and being able to hold the one who found me was willing to open up her heart and let my love in grow with each beat of her heart.the one who is willing to share her life with me knowing she could have picked anyone but she picked me.
yes i miss when each new day comes finding new ways to show and tell her how much i love her and how much she means to me.even if it is leaving her roses with little notes on them saying i love you,even if it means cooking for a candle light dinner with roses around her.taking care of her when she is sick with tlc.just spending hours talking to her.holding her hand as we are walking around.standing in front of everyone so they can hear how much i love her.not being afraid to tell her how much i love her in front of everyone.beign able to stop and kiss her no matter where we are.
falling asleep with her in my arms making the last words she heard before she fall alseep being i love you.thanking God for allowing me to find the angel that he sent from heaven just for me.waking up with her in my arms thanking God for giving me a new day to show this angel how much i love her and how much she means to me.to show her that my love for her will now,always and forever be true