Posted: Jan 26, 2008, 3:28 AM CST
blue_eyed_blonde wrote:or is it just my perception, that things seems a lil gloomy on CS as of late...more negative then normal? It's probably just me, but was wondering...
Hellooo Trudy
I've been like that for a few weeks, but for me I think it is all the stuff with my Liver Cancer buddy.. I
know it's knocked me sideways.. I just feel like someone kicked the wind out of my sails.
At the moment.. It (if you hadn't noticed haha) Is making me far less tolerant of people complaining and 'woe is me-ing'
'Have you got incurable, rapidly moving Liver Cancer? Have you been given a short time to live?
No? then shut the hell up and be GRATEFUL you can carry on LIVING!
(ermm not you Trudy BTW haha)..
It's just how I'm feeling lately.
On the one hand getting to know Mr McMaybe is giving me lots of nice feelings.. (haha I omit the good words!) and Just about since we started talking (was when we first realised there was something wrong with Trish).. So in the background (and foreground- it switches I notice) I have the feeling of being in la la land.. and at the same time being completely heartbroken about Trish.
Just like me meeting Mr McMaybe (next weekend!).. I'm
sooo looking forward to meeting him, and spending time with him to see what happens... and on the very same trip I have to go and do the one thing I've been dreading.. seeing my best friend for what
could be the very last time.
Soooooooo.. I'm all over the frickin place at the moment.. (if you hadn't noticed)
Good - Bad
Happy - Sad
Thrilled
and heartbroken..
Two complete opposites playing tug with my feeling.
I need chocolate, a hug.. a spare liver .. a jet.. and a lobotomy!