Posted: Jun 22, 2008, 11:35 AM CST
When I was married, I always felt alone no matter what. Then I met someone who was a truck driver he was gone all week, only home on the weekends, sometimes not in until lat Fri. Gone by Sun. Afternoon. I lived out in the country and when he was gone I was all alone, but I never spent one minute feeling lonely. No one ever understood including me, why with him gone so much I never felt lonely. The day I left him though I felt very alone. Now I sometimes feel alone even when I am out with my friends. I think I am pretty much learning what it is that makes me lonely like that.
Yesterday I was with a couple of my friends, the house was full of screaming kids, we were having fun just the same, but I felt kind of lonely, never could figure that out, til yesterday. In the middle of all the chaos I got a phone call, one I was kind of wanting. And as soon as I answerd the feeling went away. There was kind of the same thing happening o the other end, so we said we would talk later. as soon as I hung up the phone the feeling was back. I guess it's more o wating to be with one person so much that o matter how many people are around you tthey dont fill the void.