i will tell you about what i have experienced this morning.....it was probably 5 or 6 am ( i hate taking a look at the watch when i am staying at home

) when i woke up. I felt like talking to smb but everybody was still sleeping so i had nothing to do inside.Put on quickly my jeans and my purple shirt and went out in the garden( i even forgot to comb my hair, was probably looking like an old crone hahaha). I never told you ,guys, i have so many flowers in my garden (though it's very small) that you never get boured watching them continuously. It's my mom who adores them and takes care of them. I only play the role of admirer

So when i went outside they had already started to slowly open up their beautiful corollas, as if waiting for me to be the witness of this morning process.I couldn't resist to touch their petals and feel the softness of their colourful little bodies on my skin.Small dew drops were making their beauty even greater. And the sun was shining so peacefully over them...i suddenly had the feeling there are soooo many things we are missing in our lives just because we let ourselves be overwhelmed by all kind of problems which are sorrounding us like some high walls of darkness beyond which we even don;t dare imagining there might be happiness.I am wondering why can't we see how lucky we are for being alive, for being able to see and stare at the beauties of this world, for being able to walk, to run , to jump and laugh and hug and let to be hugged...well, we're doing all these but we're doing them mechanically, we don't feel them as a real luck and happiness.And that is bothering me:(
While staying in the sun, thinking of all these things i suddenly had the need to whisper "i love you''. I never had a stronger need in the past months like this one...It was very weird , since there's no man in my life right now and still....i wanted to whisper these 3 magical words.And i did whisper them.At first i was a lil bit shy but then whispered them louder and louder. Guess they were meant to be heard by the flowers, by the sun and the sky and the wind and the little ants that started to climb my leg as if i was a tree or smth haha and you know what? in the moment i whispered them i felt i am loved too...i just felt it

I could distinguish in that morning silence some lovely vibrations coming back to me......
i don't know why i wrote abt it here....maybe smb will pluck up courage and start whispering "i love you" too

?anyway, if u decide to do it, take care to be alone where u are hahaha i once was advised by a "sweet" neighbour to visit a psychiatrist coz i was talking with myself hahaha