Posted: Aug 15, 2008, 5:54 AM CST
So I'm new to the whole internet dating thing, but I thought I'd give it a try. I'm at the point in life where all I have left is to choose where I want to go for work and who I want to spend the rest of my life with. I've had a TON of trouble getting away from my last relationship... It was one that brought me nothing but horrible, life-changing experiences to be honest :( And somehow I can't seem to get her out of my mind, or look into other relationship possibilities because of that attachment I somehow still have. I'm young, but not stupid. I'm probably the most analytical person one could meet; and being the shy, silent observer my whole life I have a pretty good understanding of love and relationships. The thing is, while I can see what's best for others, I really don't know what's best for myself. I'm not the average sex hound like most dudes out there, and I have a unique genuine and honest personality that few people get to know. Mostly because you won't ever see me jumping from girl to girl in the bar hitting on each one till I find a match. I guess maybe I'm that guy that's kept a secret until the right girl steps up and brings me to life again? You'd have to be the judge of that. As I said.. my last relationship killed my confidence, and ripped a hole in me I haven't completely closed shut. I don't believe the girls that have told me I'm desireable.. yet most of what I'm saying about myself has come from other people's mouths. Confusing... ya. Anyways, I'm done rambling. I'm mostly writing this for myself I guess... more of a blog lol. But if anyone is interested in what I'm saying, feel free to give me a shout or drop your input. I'm sure I'm not alone in my situation.