Posted: Aug 20, 2008, 10:02 PM CST
WOW I POSTED THIS IN THE WRONG THREAD-IM NOT MYSELF-APOLOGIES
thanks everyone who sent flowers and ecards and letters
ninja and fatty went away together, i was in the room
it was yesterday-they lie right down beside each other-cat and dog that had been together 15 yrs and never knew they werent sposed to like each other-they were just family
when i got home the other 2 dogs knew
and when my kid came home from school, well you can imagine...
i feel ok-i feel a bit better, or at least different
the months of knowing, waiting, putting it off-
i think its better now-it can be processed.
ive still had 2 ppl mailing calling be a murdering self centered
attention seeking bitch- oh well
these 2 have given me a gift over the last year-how to keep online relationships the right size
people i get to know by phone or that actually exchange real correspondence with regularly-people that we make ourselves open to each other- these are people i give a bit more weight in my life than forum friends-
ive decided the genuine pain from this sad decision is plenty on its own and i dont mind how many times i get those ugly letters-
clearly these people need compassion-im no saint but i can definitely choose compassion.
life goes on-our life goes on-the coming weeks are very busy and very important and i will never not miss ninja-or fatcat
almost 16 years i had those 2-they were w/ me thru so many things
thank you to those that have shared their kindness with me
xO