sweetowen: I just thought of this... how utterly PATHETIC is my life?? I'm sitting here, watching my friend's kids, so that she can be with her new special guy. What stinks about that is that I HAVE NO LOVELIFE!!! Otherwise, I wouldn't be so available to do sooo darned much babysitting!!
Don´t think your life is pathetic, at least not so out of the normal stuff... just think of how many special ones turn out to be freaking arseholes.
I think the key is not to feel self-pity and stop sounding pathetic. That is my humble opinion.
There are also many ways to be happy and love is not precisely the safest path.