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cardsfan24: After a lot of countless hours and self anaylyzing to the bone...i finally get to TOOT my own horn...lmao

I am no where near knowing completly who i am because as life changes so do you. You never know who you are until you know what your capable of. I know now im capable of being around my old friends without drinking. I know now that im capable of not drinking or using drugs to cope with what i thought life gave me unfair. Life give's me what i can handle. And im pretty good at handling it. Im a lover, but fight for what i love but won't chase an illusion that is too far away to recieve. I am a hard worker. Im also your best friend and worst enemy. I don't sugarcoat, because i dont' want it done to me. Im working on myself everyday..but getting closer to understanding taht what i am is a gift..and i have to use it to help myself. Im me...and that's it

spiceygamble: When we learn not to fight with ourselves, within our own skin... we find ourselves comfortable there.
When we remember that silly thing the cats did before the pimple on our butt... we've arrived.
When it's ok to make a face in the mirror, for no one other than us to see... we've begun to warm up to our own charms.
When a little bit of greed is reserved in an ice cream box, hidden deep in the back of the freezer(for those grumpy days)... we start to find balance.
When you toss out the last old t-shirt from the ex collection, with a wicked giggle... life is good.
When you leave the makeup in the bathroom & the slippers by the door and stand in the rain with arms outstretched... you just got those 5 yrs back you lost to crying.
When the silence of the house is more beautiful than your favorite CD... you've bloomed.

Enjoy it.

shipoker58: It is really hilarious to read some of the postings here. You talk about phoney!! I read the postings of one person and then remember the hateful e-mail sent by this person, full of venom and vulgarities! I am not sure this person is in touch with reality let alone the real self!

The_Kansan: Damn, Starlin! I hope it wasn't me?

shipoker58: No guy!! You're cool!

Sommerauer71: Do any of you good people know who you are?

mbcasey: I have a good idea of who I am, but I am still learning. I consider myself a work in progress.

Nice thread Sommer....

BarrenPneuma: Oddly enough I do feel as though I have known myself (not Biblically you pervs- but hey I guess that too I am only human ya know) all my life. I have lived a very odd life that not only allowed me to be me but encouraged or rather forced me to know me.
I just had to wait for what seemed an eternity to meet someone who could appreciate all my eccentricities for what they are... parts of me.
I have lived alone for more years than I care to get into but for the most part I was never uncomfortable during those times.
I don't believe I have ever been bored for very long, and it seems to have bothered more people that I could be happy alone than it ever did me.
I never wanted to be alone mind you I just never saw it as a prison or punishment, I sought myself during tose times and I do know me very well because of it.
I have only sought out one person in my life that I knew I could live without but never as wholly as I could with them. Once and only once. I lost this person through a grave misunderstanding and it rattled me deeper than I have ever been shaken. I now have some chance to make ammends and at the least salvage the friendship we once shared like that midnight ice-cream. One day at a time is all I ask as I would hate myself for missing even one single moment by skipping even one word ahead of that fantastic book.
I have never had any problem attracting friends and others who have told me that they believed that I should have known that their interests were deeper. I never knew in 99% of these cases and the odd ones that I had any inkling of I very politely maintained a friendship with that was of mutual benefit for both of us.
I have also been slapped, and screamed at for being a pussy tease (masculine version of the cock tease) but not by anyone who really knew me. I am like so many men in this aspect- oblivious completely. I have not felt less than worthy or more than worthy I just never saw. Perhaps words could have clarified but so many believe that their inner most thoughts can be read and I flunked that class.
I am comfortable in my skin, flaws and all. I can laugh at myself. I can make me cry. I can make me laugh. And in this I know that I have managed to keep the little child alive in me and that is where I think we all leave the parts of us that we need the most.
My best friend has the most remarkable ability to bring that little boy out with but a smile, as if I have known her all my life. When I saw her for the first time I knew in my heart that I already knew everything about her, and it was the little girl I saw in her eyes that smiled at me the first time and got me to take a walk through a puddle in the rain for the first time since I was a carefree child.