I carefully chose this name for a few reasons.
Firstly it was exactly how my heart and spirit felt when I lost the woman of my life for a period that seemed infinite and miraculously ended 4 months almost to the day. I came back here before she reconnected with me and my soul was truly infertile and cold.
I did not want to have a user name that indicated broken or damaged goods but neither was I here to look for someone to replace her. I felt that such a name would suffice for all purposes in these cases.
Barren to me meant fallow or not in use. I am an avid naturalist and there is much beauty in the landscapes that appear barren to the eye. The deserts, tundras, mountains, etc. are all considered barren yet are teeming with vibrant life. Just not the sort of life that usually draws much attention.
Another reason for the barren nomenclature is the one that won it over for me enough to commit to it. When the Lord comes into a life he often has to strip it of everything that was there previously. Like a smith working the dross and impurities out of metal. To forge something, you need to get it as close to raw as possible, and in this state, being of one state it could be considered barren.
My heart and soul were full of misconceptions from my own environment and this needed to be cleansed. I am in a constant state of growth and healing in this manner and I cannot afford the luxury or confusion of terrain in my heart to lead me astray again. Hence the barren, as it is much easier to oversee the landscape when there are no obvious formations to block the view.
Barren, not infertile. In a constant state of growth and development so to speak.
~ Mark
