"Excpect" is actually a dirty word, didn't you know that?
I was just cruising around trying to find some good dating sites, might as well add another as I already had a few. Sure there is always hope, especially for me who rarely gets to meet people IRL. Being stuck here in the vast and dark Finnish forest... just a few ape-like creatures around... And some retired folks 20 years my senior. The only appealing male I've seen is my shrink (don't worry it's just 1-2 times a month because of the forest and the long winter and ok well some recovering also from rejections and stuff) but he's married, hahahahhahahahha.
So I'm not sure where I'd be without the internet to be quite frank.

It's kept me alive for four years, and in fact some virtual friends have been made along the way and it doesn't feel totally fake at all. Nah, sometimes you just "know".
I came here and was blown away by all the traffic and activity. So it's been quite the social experiment for me. Trying to figure out how to navigate among such a variety of people and how to deal with all those cute guys who come and say nice things about me (gee I guess it pays off to have become middle aged!). When at times I've come across threads where people have really shared deeper experiences it has certainly felt worthwhile. And when the jokes are good and inspiring that's very stimulating as well.
Yes, stimulation is what I'm looking for