smoky wrote:Just think .... you were only born Tomorrow! Today your poor old Mum was SO uncomfortable and thinking you were Never gonna arrive .... And she had your cot all decorated in Pink and Frills, all the booties knitted, all the little jerseys, the long flannel night-gowns, the little vests with ribbon ties, all the little "receiving" blankets, and hand crochet shawls, your pram waiting for you, all the Baby Powders, Baby soaps, Baby Lotions........... and her bag packed with your Coming Home Outfit!.... And then.... Tomorrow YOU were born! ...... how many years ago?
..... And now she`s an Old Lady, bedridden ..... and she still loves you - and forgives you the pain you caused her to bring you into this world!...and for ruining her figure..... All those sleepless nights, burping you, trying to get food into your little rosebuddy lips......
... Anyway .. kiddo ..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY for tomorrow! May your New Year bring you much happiness!
Oh well - very sad!
I should have been flying home tomorrow and could have made it to that 'home' (that ISN'T my real home) and my parents could have said:
'Happy Birthday, son!' and gone to sleep....... but I'd have been tempted to go and say 'hello' on my way to a woman I love(d) and that would have only upset her, and upset me.
I'm better off where I am - with my real friends, and I know that my parents will wish me well even if I am not there!
Sometimes the end of a relationship can bring something positive - in this case I believe it has....for both of us!
I am NOT running away from the lovely islands of Gozo and Malta because I can't stand being so near to somebody I have loved and lost, but it IS a good thing for me to stand on my own two feet and feel a free man capable of making his own decisions and making my own life unburdened by the love I had as a carer for my parents.
I did my best. I did more than I agreed to do. I became resentful and stressed and lacked self-esteem.
I admire the unselfish work most women and mothers do but I am not a woman!
I am a man and I want to live and compete and prosper in my environment - a man's world where maybe 'dog eats dog' but I'm not the bottom dog, and I like that....a little competition brings out the best in me!
~Woof!~ ~Growl!~ ~Snarl!~
