About me: Hello, to all who wish to know me, or at least a portion of me.
First off, I still have two children to raise. That is my first priority. And because of this, I find that I am very busy doing things, alone, with and for them.
I still have to work so this takes up more of my time. I manage a farm and have little free time to just get up and go somewhere. But this job allows me the luxory of staying home and raising my kids, not someone else raising them for me. It is a compromise that will make a difference in the end. I know that I am not in the best shape I can and should be in. My body aches and my feet hurt. Old age is part of it. lol
I wonder, if people are so concerned with looks, what happens when someone gets really sick,like cancer, or if they where badly hurt in an accident. Would they still be loved by the person they are with? Life happens and things happen to us, that are usually out of our
control. When I read profiles that say how in shape and athletic and healthy they are, I feel two things. First is, wow, they would never be interested in me and the second is I wish I was like them. But I realize that where I am right now in life is where I am. I am not them and I am not there, yet. I have and do put my well being further down on the priority list, for now.
I have noticed that because I have done so much on my own for so long that I don't know how to accept or ask for help. I am exhausted, mentally, physically and emotionally. It would be so nice to have someone understand and share my/our lives with us. Someone who can and will try to understand me. Faults and all. We all have a past. And that past made us who we are today. Deep down we want to be loved, understood , held, and listened to.
I am hoping to find someone who understands all the twists and turns that happen to us.
Someone who is strong enough to allow me to be me. Someone who can truely see behind the outer self.
I'm looking for: Wow, hard one, let me think. Well someone who is honest, warmhearted, down to earth. Nothing weird. Someone who is there for the long haul. People disagree, that's normal. But there should be a willingness to agree to disagree. I haven't got a clue what else I should say. Everyone is so different.