Deeper Still

Ever since I was nine years old I have been gifted with what took years discovering what it was actually called. To many, they use the term psychic. I dislike the use of this term to describe “trusting my intuition” "being Empathic" and/or being able to just heart-fully know about certain things in people’s life without ever having any prior physical contact with them. 
I have counseled people my whole life from minor things to suicides. It is not that I claim to be psychic, I am just very trusting of the voice of mine own heart. And I use my intuition to help as many people as I can. I have never been able to use any of these gifts for “reading” myself or counseling myself. Perhaps, this is because I am too close to me? Either way, whatever terms we use to describe the intuition that is taking place... I have it, and so do you. To what extent differs for the each of us. 
I do not believe that you and/or I are better than anyone else by identity. I do, however, believe that the way we choose to respond to our own gifts, and how we express them within our interactions with others, may drastically set us aside from others; and how we communicate about them might give the appearance of us being humble and/or arrogant of them. Yet, just as you are not responsible for how I think and/or interpret what I am hearing and or feeling when you communicate with me, or within my capabilities of witnessing your communication to others, I am not responsible for how you interpret what you think, feel, or how you choose to respond/react to what I communicate to you directly; or whatever you may witness me communicating to others. 
We all have specific beliefs and possibly even traditions that we each follow that adds to the accumulation of our beliefs and/or things we may or may not hold sacred within our own minds and/or hearts. This perhaps adds to the totality of what makes the each of us unique: respectively speaking. Perhaps those beliefs, dogmas, superstitions, traditions, and/or philosophies we have taken upon ourselves as our own, because they were handed down to us by and through the generations of those who believed in a same and/or similar way; who passed them onto us as if it were a truth to be guarded and revered as something divine enough to continue the belief and thought of and/or in: perhaps it is something we believe in enough to share it with others that they may join us in the intimacies of sharing in the same and/or similar journey of beliefs in our own lives.
Yet in cannot be peacefully forced upon anyone against their wills, and/or the intentions of their mind and heart by and through what they are destined for experiencing by their own choices in life. For this, I have no conscious intentions of ever forcing what I believe upon others: regardless of their culture, ethnicity, creeds, and/or sex. 
However, though that be said, I am a man of honor and integrity and would not avow the depths of my soul to any woman who was not either already an honorable person, or at the very least willing to be guided and taught how to be an honorable person. Truth, honesty, compassion, trust, humbleness, and loyalty to what is just, honorable, and trustworthy are just a few of the things that matter most to me in the Woman of whom I am in humble search of; I am also in search of this in those whom I befriend, just not to the higher degree and/or extent of which I would long for in a helpmeet/partner, significant other, and/or loving wife. 
If I cannot honor the divinity within her before we even meet, then how could I ever possibly honor that divinity within her while together (?)… For me, as I am, I could not. Therefore, I seek her with humility and grace, already honoring each person I meet to the extent [that]their own consciousness allows me to express such unto them. 
My deepest intent for even being here on this site... is finding true love…my Soul Mate: the lady of my ancient dreams. However finding and making friends is just as much of a blessing to me, since one of my long ago goals were –and are- to have a true friend in every country. 
I may feel closest to you and do not even attempt to understand why yet. Maybe it’s just going to be an awesome friendship. Maybe we won’t ever speak again; maybe it’s just an exchange of energy, thoughts, ideas, and/or something we both needed to hear and/or feel. I do not know for sure. What I am sure about though, is that I trust my heart and what I feel. 
I feel drawn to, or may even feel drawn to you as something more than just friends on a deeper level. However, do not expect me to make the first move per-se, in actuating yours and/or my romantic communication with each other, that may build to something more than just some friendship; albeit friendships is just as divine.  However logically, I am not going to just come out and speak of my attraction to you out of the blue, So the least I can do is bring it to that level as a friend by making the unspoken vows I would make known to you, (by and through our prospective friendship) long before I actually (officially) make them: without being too corny-sounding or strangely freaky... by slamming your mind with something like: “Hey, I want to love you for the rest of my life, because you are the only one I feel a connection to…will you let me?!” That wouldn’t work for me... even though deep down part of my awareness felt and/or may feel that way. Instead I would vow to never dishonor you, hurt you, and/or shame you, your family, and/or friends in any way whatsoever; lest they were harming you and/or others to the extent that I felt compelled to get involved.

 
Yet even in this, I am selective as to whom I take up battle for, and for what cause. 

#1)Be true to yourself that you may be true to others; especially to me if you plan on having a successful relationship with me as a friend.

#2)Be willing to learn and/or be guided on a spiritual level when it comes to beliefs, dogmas, superstitions, religion, philosophy, and/or my own views of these.

#3)Be open minded enough to leave your own comfort zone and experience new and adventurous things; even if this means leaving your homeland; whether as a journey you will return home from, or something permanent.

#4)Be honest with me. If you cannot be honest with me then there is no honor within you, and righteousness is far from you and your heart. I prefer to have nothing to do with anyone that cannot be truthful with me at all times.

#5)Be an honorable and trusting person. To do this means you will have to be self-confidant enough to be real with me and others, and not pretend to be something you are not. More importantly though, you must be real with yourself; in that inner dialogue you have with yourself in your daily thinking.

#6)Be willing to change if there is room to grow into something greater and/or better than you have are/or have been. Let’s face it; we are today what we have been becoming. If we are not happy and content with where we are… We obviously need to change our habits and/or behaviors, or we will just keep repeating the past.

#7)Be kind, compassionate, caring, sincere, loving, and forgiving of others faults and/or weaknesses. If someone is maintaining a negative, bad, ineffective, and/or self-destructive behavior while refusing to change or work on learning how to change that behavior… I will avoid them, as they are not positive influences to be around.

#8)Be Noble within your own heart and mind. You do not have to be from some royal family to feel and be noble within yourself.  If you do not feel noble within yourself, how can you ever expect to reach any goal worth pursuing [?] If the obstacles you are facing are larger than the goal you are seeking to achieve, then you obviously need a bigger better goal to reach for… in your pursuit of happiness, contentment, and/or fulfillment.

#9)Be willing to trust others openly, until they prove to you they are untrustworthy. Many individuals feel they can be trusted yet they are not willing to extend to others the same level of trust they are wanting for themselves. Without trust being equally given and received how can you ever expect to fully explore the depths of intimacy in any relationship… whether as just friends, or as wife and/or husband[?]