Today I finally confessed to myself that I don't know what I want. I was thinking I'll know when I c it (him). But it's been a while and I still don't know. I've even started to beleive everyone has only one second half and only one true love in a lifetime. But as it would be so sad if u have already missed that one and only chance I abandoned this idea..
Was thinking to make a wishlist but it is also not an option. People don't fit in checklists. Relationship even less.
I am not too picky or something but when u r with someone it should be something great, a big deal, right? Or all this is just a romantic bullshit? On the other hand there r people who r ready to die for love.. Then the conclusion is the same - the problem is in me.
Is it the same for everybody this way or it's just me and everyone else know what they want and what they r looking for?
I fell in love yesterday.. Again.. With my city..
Was going home quite late yesterday.. and there it was - a feeling I am lucky to live here
All those blaah-blaahs about "inner beauty" and "looks is not important" and "all that matters is personality"..
What a bullshit it really is!!!
All a woman needs to get ALL she wants is to be beautiful..
Usually I give a shit about this.. But today somehow feel frustrated.
U battle like crazy to get or achieve something .. but then there comes some sexy chick with absolutely no brain in her blonde head.. and gets everything u couldn't even dream of.. And she even doesn't do anything!!!
Ah, and u say it's fair?!
OK, OK, I guess I sound like a nerd..
But well, today I kind a feel like one..
Sometimes all we need after a long and exhausting week is peacefull weekend somewhere away form everything (and everybody)
As my friend says - bad experience is also an experience.. We can always learn form it..
Just a cognition how naive I really am... Misserable, isn't it?
Anyway, these are our own mistakes we learn from.. And this time I definately will..
I want to be loved but I don't want to love..
I guess it doesn't work this way, does it?
Today was going to work and watching people.. Two girls - one in the bus and the second one in the bus stop - they were talking to each other without words and both smiling.. And then I thought - people still know how to smile. Despite crisis, despite cold, despite early morning ..
That made me smile to.. :)
Let's have a great time today :))
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