Wish I could turn back the clock..
But I know I can't. I am realistic about Life. But I think it is okay to wish.Yesterday my oldest daughter got married. The legal part of it. The actual wedding is in two months.
I went to the cemetery in the morning and laid flowers on three graves. My Dad, my late husband and my late parents in law. I was asking myself why I was doing it. Of course I miss them and wish they were here. But more than that I am forever grateful for them being a part of my life.
I didn't mention her of her dad. I just wanted her to be happy. So it was a secret visit to the ones who passed.
I joined CS after my husband's passing. It was a difficult time. There are lots of people who have been kind to me here. I won't mention names. Though we don't talk often on blogs, I am forever grateful to all the wonderful people. You helped me to move on.
Welela, Wallops, KN, Sands. Even Ian who are not in CS any longer. Thank you for your kindness and understanding. I hope all of you are keeping healthy and happy.
Of course there was a troll or two I got to know. Somehow you came to my mind RC. Funny, I feel you will read this.
Life goes on. People come in to our lives for reasons, seasons and life times. Even death does not seem to part the one I once loved, married and had children with. I think it is natural to think of him and feel his absence on days like these.
Wish he was there standing by my side.
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I wish you all the best Usha
Who ever said parenting was easy but saying that a joy too.
I send warm hugs lovely lady
On to happier thoughts....I bet you had a blast over recent weeks. I hope we're able to get a peek at some of that clothes shopping you must have done.
I am glad you got support on CS. Sometimes we forget, with all the discord which can be here, that it can also be a supportive, fun, community.
I hope you have good fun at the wedding when it happens
Time to reflect...many people come and go but our memories of them survive...thankful of their influence...another generation lives on...thinking of you and your loved ones...
sometimes people leave before all the made plans happened.
Or that you have to execute alone all the lessons learned by two.
Being the last one to carry on all the shared memories is a heavy burden.
and congratulations in having again a man/boy in the family.
You'll do great
As long as my daughter can handle his absence I can keep my gratitude and respect in my heart and air it in CS when my heart is heavy.
I know it is hard going to the cemetary but if it makes you feel better then it is worth it. I'm not very good at it.
It is a heavy burden indeed. But I think it is my cross to carry. Or the script written for me. As long as my character is killed in this script, I will play the part. I think.
I don't like to cry on good days. It will make others unhappy.
Kids indeed. I don't know what I was thinking.
You all good ?
I'll be in touch.
Your daughter is beautiful like her mother!
Enjoy this time with your daughter! Also think of the possible grandchildren she may bear for you!
I hope you are getting better by the day and being strong and fighting. I can't wait to hear the good news you beaten the monster.
You have been nice to me always. Hope all is well with you.
Thank you! I only hope she knows it's not easy.
may she and hers have a long and happy fulfilling life
I think you were right not to mention your visit to the grave to her..... sometimes smiling through such sadness is in the best interest for others... Good on you for being the thoughtful mum
I got a turning point two days ago, so I know what you are talking about......and when it happen, you start to think about all what has happen in your life....and you wish, that the one you have lost could be with you and sharing the experience.......I got from my Son, the information, that we are going to get two more family members.....means twins.........the to be Mother is a very beautiful and nice person and I loved to get her into our family......and guess what, she is born in Sri Lanka, but as a wealthy family, her Father took the family to Canada, when she was about 10 years old, as the war was closing in on the place, where they had their home......so we have something in common you and me, as my to be Grandsons are going to be mix Finnish and Sri Lankans
And all the best to your Daughter in her future life....and I am sure, that somebody is going to be very happy to get her as Wife.
Congratulations to you and your family on twin joy.
Thank you very much for your kind wishes.
All I Can Say Is"...."Time Marches On Miss Usha"
"Time Marches On"
"It Only Seems Like Yesterday That My Son Was Born"
"And He'll Be 39"..... "The 29th Of This Month".......................
Wish him a happy 39th from me Nam. Through tears and smiles you keep looking out for each other. Hope you have recovered well from the surgery.
"You Can Even Go Back And..... "Feel The Past"
"But... You Can Never Go Back And... "Be The Past"........................