Funkey mood
For no apparent reason, (please don't tell me it's hormones or I'll explode) I am in an emotional mess today. I am on the verge of tears....and have actually spent the better part of my lunch hour just sitting here....trying to figure out why I am feeling like I am.My job is becoming more stressful...that may have something to do with it. My son is getting married next week....I know that has something to do with it. Two nights in a row I have dremt of my sister, whom passed away almost a year ago....I know that has a lot to do with it. I've not had one dream about her since her death until two nights ago. And now, the dream still hangs with me. You see, I never mourned her death...not yet. I have unfinished business in that department, I know and sooner or later I have to deal with it, but I don't want to do it now. Maybe she's coming to me in my dreams, trying to foce me to deal with it. Too many issues about it all that I don't want to bring back to the surface.
So...here I sit...typing words that probably make no sense to anybody but myself. I thought it might help to look at the print and leave it here, on the page, instead of carrying it with me. It doesn't help.
It's probably just hormone....................................................
Comments (4)
Mary
If knowing someone else cares will help...please know that I CARE.!
If I had anything I would call advice, I'd suggest that you concentrate on your son's wedding. One of the happiest days in my memory was knowing that my son had found someone he knew would make him happy... It's many years now, and it looks like he really did make the right decision.
Many of us have "unfinished business" with those who have passed away. Sometimes it never "finishes". Don't push it, don't dwell on it...just let nature take its course.
It will all work out in the end....because you have BND at your side as you are at his.
And, with that, I step back and look for some hilarious things you two have probably written today while I was doing housework.
Lovingly,
JUDY