This Morning I Promised Him..
All these years during my stay on CS-Island, I always.. I mean ALWAYS had high self esteem when interacting with CS people. You know why? None of them was humble. And therefore to me they’re no better persons than I am. At the end of the day, I could always say:“who the hell do you think you are to me?”
“what the hell make you think you’re a better person than I am?”
Until I met my Giant..
Different from any other CS person, I have never sensed any arrogance nor any sarcasm nor any rudeness from my Giant whenever we talked on video skype.. He has always been a very humble man and that made me wonder.. who is this guy really?
To be honest, when he told me his real name, I searched on internet. I found many articles about him. So I know that he is real.. and he’s loved by his friends. But yesterday, I found one article that was posted in 2018. One of what the article said was that my Giant’s a SUPERSTAR. And I was like..
“Who the hell do you think you are, Kal?”
So this morning I asked him about that. He said “Oh I was good once!”
That’s it. That was it all he said.
For the very first time, I felt so ashamed of myself. I felt like a Lioness without teeth. Even my thorns are all broken.
I told him that the article made me wonder if I am good enough for him to be by his side.. to spend his life with.
He said:
“Stop wondering! Let’s just make our relationship work!”
And this morning I promised him that
“I WILL DO MY BEST TO MAKE OUR RELATIONSHIP WORK!”
or I would rather stay single for the rest of my life..
I love you, my Giant.. I really do with all my heart.
Indonesia, 12 August 2020
Kalpataru
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I found many writings on that topic on internet.
I told him that all the readings were just giving me headaches.
Then I said:
"Honey, I can't promise I can be a good wife to you.
But I promise that I will give you kisses when you wake up every morning,
even when I am mad at you!"