I know why I am grumpy.
I dawned on me today while I was heading home from work. I now know why I am this irritable mess. I know why I snapped and raged in my last blog.. I know what I must say, but I don't think I have the strength to acknowledge it. I am scared. That I would be considered a failure. That I am considered weak. But deep down inside, I KNOW I am not weak. I KNOW I am not a failure.. I guess I just have to say it:I am a coca cola addict. I don't mean it in a funny way like "hurr I am such an addict to coca cola lol.".. I really mean it. I am an addict. How do I know I am an addict?
Well, these past few days, I have been consuming a LOAD of coca cola. Up to six 0.5 liter bottles a day. That is 3 liters of the stuff. Once I finish a bottle, I want another one straight away. That, in my book, is an addiction. I crave the taste of a cola. If I don't drink one each day, I feel terrible. It's because I need the sugar and the caffeine.
Tomorrow, I am gonna drink nothing but water, to see if it helps. I would like to start doing it now, but I don't have any near me.
So there it is. I am an addict. Some of you might go "Well at least it's not alcohol or drugs", which is true.
Comments (4)
acceptance is always better than denial JMO.
Right or wrong, but in my books ......
if you were weak or a failure I don't think you'd continue coming in here writing/sharing your personal journal as you sometimes do, regardless of what others may say and think of you.
that takes guts ... and from where I'm viewing, you have them
When will you bring out a blog explaining your rudeness