A Different Kind of Loneliness
Today I learned that being lonely and alone isn’t all that terrible. God shared with me that I don’t love myself and it’s apparent by my actions. I don’t go to bed on time, I drink too much, I don’t get ready for work, my hygiene is questionable and my weight has skyrocketed. He makes a fair point. I don’t have a comeback. Like I ever did anyway. So He said you are not ready for a relationship at all...at all! Today He said that very loud and clear. He finally told me why He’s been telling me no for years. All I could do was receive His gentle correction. I don’t know what to say. I don’t have anything to say. All I know is that I’m willing to stay single for Him now no matter how long it takes. This is a big step for me because I was never willing to do that before. But when God talks to you that clearly, you listen. There’s nothing you can do but listen. Recently I told a guy friend how I felt about him. He prayed to God about if we could be together. God told him to tell me no. So he came back to me and said God said not now. Gee I wonder why. I think He finally told me why because He knows I’m in love with this man. Totally in love. I’ve known this man for years and he’s the one. But I’m glad God finally told me today hey you’re messed up! I won’t give you anyone until you fix that. So this aloneness I feel is good. It’s different. It’s a purposeful loneliness. It will be guided by Him.And thanks for reading. I needed to share this with strangers and not on Facebook. It’s too personal for Facebook. Sometimes you just gotta share with strangers.
Comments (23)
I learned not to wish for things anymore though.
Introspect is always a good thing...change what you feel you need to change.
Surround yourself with positive people...kindness brings good to other’s and yourself.
As you may know, maybe 1 per Cent of members here mcblog...of that per Cent, muy fancy themselves as policy wonks or Activists.
.. alternative 3 is in the Understanding that 2 kingdoms are being built right before our eYes.
One is temporary & pans Left. The other is Straight UP & trumps Entropy.
7692...a rambling poem / song.
..183....wish for, hope for...
7509...Yah is [ the ] cure......
P.S Love your hair!
Bob you don’t have to be lonely. There’s a way to get over it. I got over it a long time ago. I just want a spouse to have fun with. I posted that tonight on my Facebook. You learn to live without but is it even considered without? There’s just certain perks to a relationship but there are also to singleness and yes as Butcher mentioned it’s not all bad.
But I will not tolerate being put down for my religion. We are all human here and all believe in something even if it’s not believing in anything. Thank you.
I admire you for acknowledging your short comings. It takes courage to admit and then right the wrongs.
Like you I'm proud to be a Christian.
And good to see another unashamed Christian!
When one is trained to listen, understands. It was better, for you. Otherwise, you would have been hurt along.
it is the same when a child looks, when wearing it. what does a child feel, wearing it?
what the child tells you, by looking over the image? (question still stands)
Hope you are in a much better place now.