I am a Mistake

No matter what I try to do everything I do is a mistake. Just when I touch something it turns to ash and floats away. Every rainbow I chase only brings me a storm and an empty pot of gold. For every step forward I make, I fall back so many I lose where I was. Everytime I find the light that damn lightbulb blows. Today is a very weak day for me, in so many ways. Once again I let my emotions and love get the best of me. I let what I love the most be an object to hurt me. My first mistake was trying to be strong. Today I must admit I find myself wallering in my own pity, dringed in my own tears, and surrounded by my own gloom. I cried and cried last night. I eventually cried myself to sleep.

I just don't understand how a 41 year old man can be so childish and uncaring about something that is 50% him. I don't understand why I must be yelled at and drilled daily about everything that truly has nothing to do with him anymore. Why must I suffer moment after moment and day after day just because I believed I deserved to be happy? When will I find that golden path, the one leads to my hopes and dreams, the one where the clouds are lifted, the one that leads me to someone that wants to be happy with me? Why must I be mistake everyday I wake up?
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When you say and mean it STOP!!!!!!! Remember the word NO and REMEMBER YOU ARE IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Remember you allow this to happen to you... YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN STOP IT>>>>>>>>Stay NO MORE>>>>>>THEN HANG UP< WALK AWAY>>>> LEAVE HIM TO WALLOW IN HIS OWN POO........


Don't allow him to control you, You are in control of yourself......



YOU ARE WORTH EACH DAY YOU WAKE UP< YOU ARE WORTH EACH BREATH YOU TAKE>>>> YOU ARE WORTH LOVE AND HAPPINESS>>>>


SO TAKE IT IN YOUR OWN HANDS AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT......


I have been there.... I won't go there again....



This is said with love....


Maryhug
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