Saying goodbye is never easy - but it had to be done!

Way back in 2021, I wrote a blog about having dinner with K. Up until then, things had been great. We went to shows, went to the cinema and just hung out at her place. She also spent a night at the place I used to live at with a friend.

Since that dinner, I have heard very little from her. Whenever we eventually DID meet, it was always a "Hi, I'm on my way to bed. Let's meet up at some point", which was fine. "She'll contact me with a time to meet", was my thought.

That was a year and a half ago.

Somehow it felt like she didn't want to spend time together. That I somehow had crossed a line that shouldn't be crossed. I don't know what line that was, because I hadn't done anything remotely bad.

Wednesday afternoon, I asked her to tell me straight how she felt. No sugar coating. Just 100% honesty. I got a reply the same evening, where she told me, that she wasn't really interested in meeting up and do low-key stuff such as making some food and watch movies, because "we don't watch the same movies or shows, so it would be stupid to meet up for that". She also prefers to go to big and small metal concerts, which I don't.

My reply to her was that she at least could send a message now and again with a "Hi, how are you?". You know, small-talk.

That message was left on read for three days. That cemented it for me. If she wanted to small-talk, she would have replied. If she wanted to continue, she would have replied. So I did what I really should had done last year: I stopped it. Everything. I wrote her a message, where I outlined my decision. I then wished her well, unfriended her and blocked her.

Now, you might think "Isn't it a bit too extreme to unfriend and block because of no reply?"

Well, under normal circumstances - yes. But having messages left on read for months and no replies on "Hello, how are you doing?", isn't really worth pursuing. It's not a friendship worth having. I would rather cut ties and move on, rather than hoping things would change. Because, let's be real here - things won't change.

In my message I sent Wednesday afternoon, I said "If you are dating someone - tell me". Her reply to that was "Me dating someone or not isn't really relevant".. Which is a line someone says when they are dating someone.

I admit, my personal feelings has a part to play here. Deep down I kind of hoped that K and I would end up as a bit more than friends, which is why "Me dating someone or not isn't really relevant" stuck with me.

So now, well now I can focus on work, and not focus on whether or not K has replied to a message I have written. Do I need time to "move on"? No. I just jump head first into work. I also have my upcoming trip to think about. 101 days to go until I take off towards the USA.

I am very excited for that.