Mary's Faults

I sit staring out my window reviewing my life that has passed me by without life outside even noticing I exist.

I sit up sleepless and this pain fills my heart as I think of everything that I caused by letting down my guard in a area I should have never let myself venture.

I fell In Deeply and took greedily a Love that could never be mine and I allowed it to take me to Places that I believed were forbidden because these places belonged to another.

I cradle myself in a ball and whimper like a saddened child feeling my sentence of my broken heart being crashed against the Reefs of a Swollen ocean of despair.

I Cannot Blame anyone but myself my loss blinded me to grasp out into the darkness and pull in some light but somewhere I forgot to use my senses and to look out for the undertow.

This Light was a Brilliant Beautiful Being he Truly did fall as deeply but his hulls were beaten and leaked as he coasted with no sails to give him direction.

He only knew one way and a change of wind could sink him for he could not accept a new Sail because he didn't know how to steer it.

He was a Wonderful man I will always be thankful but his ship is calling and he will rest his hull in the Murky Waters and throw out his life line.

I lay here in my own misery and I have no one to blame than myself and wait for God's mercy to free me from this place of self Pain and to give me strength to face my weakness of Loneliness and except Mary's faults and Imperfections.