Waiting to Know

I used to wear my hair long enough to sit on then, one day exhausted by the heat, by the sheer weight of it, I had it all cut off. Such freedom! I ran into someone in the supermarket who had seen me just the day before and she said 'Did you cut your hair?" I said, rather snidely, "No, I had someone else do it for me. Why?". I did think of saying no I tried this new shampoo and it shrank but that would have been pushing the envelope too hard back then, Now, I'd say it. The hair was almost four feet shorter, what did she think happened?

But that's just it. People frequently don't think. They open up their mouths, pick up their pen, sit at a keyboard and just let loose. I'd do it more myself probably, but years working in the various media train you to consider every word before committing to it. So if I insult you, I most likely meant to. Really.

This place is the exception. In the blog section I am writing for my own amusement, I sort my thoughts, my days, my worries and my woes to give myself persective. Long distance view of bajanblue and all her convoluted mutterings; my alter ego speaking to me, myself, and I to see if anyone of us, of me, has any sense to make today. Sometimes it helps.

I make decisions, according to others, very quickly. Not entirely true. I consider several courses of action all the time. Explore what paths I might want to take, what goals I have, so when asked will you do X I can say yes or no because I have already seen the possibilities. Have thought the what ifs through.

I am not always happy with the results of my decisions, but who is? I live my life dancing from one stepping stone to another, touching down and taking off; life is so brief a moment, if we blink we miss it. Much like British summers I have known. Let them put on my tombstone ~Rest, at last ~ not ~She had regrets~. Some things I have left undone and feel no need to do; some things I will not do again, waterskiing for one, parachute jumping, for another.

Reading this back I realise I am once again 'in process'. Exploring something myself has not yet confided to me. I know the patterns that I take along my journey when a diversion is coming due.

Wonder what it will be this time.
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I agree...I will never pursue something in vain again...It's not in my nature nor do I have the inclination to!!!!!!!!!!!



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mamamia! Now finally comes His Royal Highness Prince of Persia! CT must be on cloud nine for this honorary title.
mamamia! Now finally comes His Royal Highness Prince of Persia! CT must be on cloud nine for this honorary title.
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