Reservations behind, Aspirations ahead!I'm from a small town in the middle of nowhere Iowa. Often times I have figured it would be next to impossible to meet the one I want to spend forever with. I have been through two tough relationships. The second giving me the two things that mean most in my life, my girls. Without them I wouldn't have made it to this point where my heart is completely open and having let someone in.
I've dated here and there and have talked to different guys. I just never felt that connection, which takes everything to the higher level. I was so passive to any guy I spoke with. Most times not being on the same level of intellect and having enough in common. Often times after speaking with a guy for only a few days I would completely lose interest.
It wasn't until I felt the impossible would never occur, it did! There was a very nice guy in CS chat just waiting for me. I had even spoke with him a few times in passing. He extended an invitation over a message of 'wanting to know you better'. I was apprehensive, but figured I gave everyone a chance before. At that time it was inevitable to me that I would be deleting my profile. I was done with the online searching. He would be my last go at it.
With the reservations heavy I started to speak with him. I figured we would talk a few days. A few days wouldn't hurt. We spoke online quite a bit and made plans to call one another. It seemed that something always came up that first week and the phone call was put off. I am so glad I stuck it out until that call. It was so much easier to talk. The things we had in common were phenomenal! There was this calm in speaking to him I hadn't felt for a very long time. Shocking myself I quickly started opening up and sharing my fears, dreams, and aspirations. This man had become my confidant and my very dear friend in such a short time. I felt I had known him for years instead of weeks. Love has grown in leaps and bounds for me over him. The feeling of course mutual.
If you feel like you are about to give up, don't. It is so normal to have reservations. Even some are cynical about love after being turned down or hurt time and again. My message is in hopes to inspire you to hang in there as I have. Love comes knocking when you least expect it. In two weeks I will be going to finally meet the man who has changed my life so rapidly in the past weeks. I'm very nervous, but excited to start this new chapter in my life. To all those in the CS community who have yet to find their match, I wish you all the best. Keep up the search. Love is out there!!