Finding The Meaning of Me Again
Ok, now a lot of messages I receive on here are of unbelief why I'm even on this site. Allow me to enlighten everyone please for a moment. I at one point was in a "commited" relationship that lasted a year and a half. Yes I said committed but just recently come to terms that it was only a one person relationship. He cheated on me mentally with someone who claimed she was my friend. She is who I refer to as a pinto (the car pinto). Long story cut down to size..... he fell in love with this pinto and chose the playboy channel over me. I was blinded by 5he concept that he lost his son the "exact" same way I lost mine so who else to better understand than someone who's been down the very same road.During my relationship with the cheater, I had a breakthrough. After being belittled, downgraded, and ignored, I realized that I didn't have to take that crap anymore. When he pushed me into our kitchen sink so hard, I slapped him in self defense. Not thinking anything more about it, he then drew his hand back as far as he could and open handed me in my face. I was told I looked like a whore in the outfit I had on that day (the photo on my profile shows the outfit) . I was just tired of it all. Mainly of his behavior in front of two of my children. Tired of him throwing things, forcing locked doors open, drunken moments which occured most of the time. But also and moreso tired of not being cherished and loved like I deserved.
When I love, its all or nothing, no halfway.
I then decided that is rather love someone and leave having a broken heart than stay in a bad relationship where the partner has no love for me.
As I told him, "I love you, but I love me more"
So I'm finding me again, its what I deserve.
Comments (10)
When he pushed me into our kitchen sink so hard, I slapped him in self defense. Not thinking anything more about it, he then drew his hand back as far as he could and open handed me in my face.
My dear friend.
I don't want to disappoint you, but I will tell you this:
A man, A TRUE MAN who respects primary himself , NEVER hits a woman, not even with a flower !!!
This behavior of his, shows other things!!!
I've seen this "movie" several times !!!!
Its not easy been on your own but like you I rather be in a relationship with someone that loves me 100% and if he can't give me that better off on my own.
Love yourself I have a saying men may come and men may gone but the only person that stays is you.
Im juz sad that u wait until he hurted u physically!
If i were u,, then he hit me,, n0t only slap on his face i can give..i would hit his face with a baseball bat, then find a big axe and chop his hands and feet....
Lol
Cheers!
Oh.d0nt ya wory,,it juz happen n tv!
Lol
That's really scary! make sure you clarify to him it's not a hint
still ... "I love you, but I love me more" sounds pretty selfish to me .....
I think it is very logical and sensible.
Read a few good books to help you find yourself:
The Power of NOW - Eckert Tolle
Happier Than God - Neale Donald Walsch
Enjoy ...
call me if you wish to chat.
John
Good for you for kicking him out the door into the street because that kind of behavor is not need in front of your kids or for yourself and in the long run now & years from now, you will feel better that you did kick him out because you & your kids don't need a man that brings so much pain & suffering to your lives , You & your kids do deserve better
Personly I don't like any man abusing a woman and that any man [with God's eyes watching] should all get along with the woman that he should do truly love and support, To me this makes us good guys look so bad .