didnt have to

Well i was very relieved that i didnt have to direct those shows. it turned out that Gerald didnt want to go to his class that night so he came in and directed them and i ran audio as usual. i was so glad that i didnt have to direct them because i knew that it wouldnt have gone well. its not that i was worried that it might not go well, i knew that it wouldnt go well. it just wouldnt have. hopefully they wont try to make me start directing them down the road, but they probably will, since nobody else really wants to. im glad that im getting quite a few hours, more than i thought i would be. apparently theres lots of little things that need done that i am able to come in and do and get some hours.
i found out that the childrens book that i illustrated has won some kind of national award and i was invited to go to wichita ks to accept it at some ceremony. but ill be too busy with work and thats too far to drive so im not gonna make it. i kinda wish i could cuz its not very often that i get recognition for something that i have done. the author also told me that he has plans for 3 or 4 more books that would be similar and that i would actually be paid for illustrating them. thats exciting to me because then i would actually be a real book illustrator. he also said that he wants me to appear on an education dvd that would be sent to schools that overviews the book and would have me explaining how i did the drawings and me demonstrating sketching. that would be cool too. i feel rather flattered but also kinda silly, since it seems like a lot of fuss over a few charcoal sketches.
i finally emailed my ex gf to see if she wants to talk, even tho i pretty much know that she doesnt. she had told me that we would talk in september but i havent heard from her at all. if she doest email me back, it will be to say something like, im sorry, i dont want you back, goodbye and leave me alone.