WX: The Lost Good Things
Recently I have been so frustrated that I nearly wanted to scream. But the joke is that, from the outsiders, my daily life is as peaceful and simple as before. What matters is just my mind.I just think that it is so difficult to get some trust, some loyalty, some sincerity and some understanding from some people. Aren’t trust, loyalty, sincerity and understanding the simplest things in the world? But why is it so difficult to get them?
For the children, to be happy is very simple. And for the adults, to be simple is happy. I really want those simple things back --- that is, just trust him, but not doubt his sincerity and loyalty; understand him, in the way he understands me. Before I trusted him and thought that I understood him. That was very simple. Didn’t have much doubts and misunderstandings. But now I can not. He changes, or I change too. Something is between him and me. In those years, he was so real. But now, I feel that, he is just the star in the water, not far, but not real.
What I want is just some mutual trust, mutual loyalty, mutual sincerity and mutual understandings. They are the simplest things in the world, but they turn out to be the most difficult things to get.