What 's Love?...
Love for me 's sustained.One story among many others, including many that have no end.
My life was determined to dismiss the love of a man. Then came the one I thought and felt, he could be the man of my life. I met him here. Almost two years struggling with my feelings, to take courage, and decision to face the love. And all for what?..
It was all in vain... Nights and days of anguish, sleepless days of suffering and the hunger...Only my pillow can count my tears...The pain and despair of a distant love... I was woman enough to board a plane and cross the seven seas, to a destination that didn't know. Risking my life and future of those waiting my return...
I never regret those two weeks, which for me were the glory...two weeks full of love..the most intimate contact that two ppl can feel...back with dreams, plans and desires to make a new life...
Everything collapsed, as a book already read, that will never be read again..and all that for the man I had put all my heart and all my hopes..didn't have the courage, as a man, to face life...
for a man, believed that his whole life depends seated behind a screen...the other side of that screen, there 's only cold and evil....for a man who didn't know to value me as a woman...What I learn from this??...delusion, pain and distress..and he put them before me...and don't appreciate the moment we live..I'm a woman, who in this life, has suffered to much..and I had the courage to get up from where I was and take a step forward..to fight for something..I thought that he would give me the love I expected..and give unconditional love..now every day I wonder, as I can start my inner feelings, pain, anguish and despair..I'm a shadow in my own home...when I walk, it's as my body had no soul..that love has no meaning..when wronged and hurt..may be a beloved person..without being deserved that love?..a man who 's afraid to love and be loved..what do I do?..still try..I want to forget..I want to rip out that page of the book..but always there..present...like a hammer on my head..I want another chapter in my life...I feel that I'm a woman..whose heart wants to be loved..that's what I want..but my heart wants to keep loving him..against all desire...
I want to share this with the reader...I fell like I need air...I'm a voice that wants to be heard...
Comments (24)
the poor girl feels like there's a hammer on her head,and your comment was a bit like sledgehammer,but,i have to admit you can be funny from what i've read so far on your comments
afterbam,
Yesterday is History,
Tomorrow is Mystery,and
Today is MISERY
welcome to CS
Bam
I'm agree with u...I'm trying to do the best I can...Say, that 's good, expresses and write what u feel, can make a difference..I want to change this for better things...I want to hear what the ppl want to say...many times the silence does more damage...
i am sory it didnt work out as u wished to,but thats life.most of the people here ,say they r looking for their new love,but when the time comes thsy back off ,cause they r afraid.
its up to us to disappear those fears and prove them that we really love them
Yeap...this's the cruelty life...the dark side of the story...
Life dose go on...
Think of it as a experience in life...
If you go on like this you will just end up with a break down...
You sad "I never regret those two weeks."
Think of it as a adventure,and think of a better future.
Sorry to hear about what happened.
I met a man on an internet site, long distance. We talked daily, and immediatly he says I love you, I want to marry you. I was saying to myself, how can someone fall in love with you without even meeting you?
This guy was a smooth talker, sayed all the right words. Trying to reel me in, like I was a fish caught on his hook, he thought I took the bait.
I played his game. He did purpose, gave me a ring, but that night he got so plastered. Next day talked to his friend who told me that I told him I wanted in open relationship. WTH is that all about? I've never been married, have no kids, why would I want something like that? I want the marriage, the kids, but only with 1 man, the one I'm destined for. NO seeing more then 1 person. Friggin UNBELEIVABLE! And also discovered he stole money from my wallet. He was a sick man in need of help desperatly. Pray for him still that he got the help. Also had a gambling issue. RED FLAGS all over the MAP.
But he was a sweet talker....His voice enough to melt any womans heart....Watch out for that type of man. Good Luck.
The best way to get over something like this is get back in a mood.
Even if you are just talking with someone its good...Its beginning.
Positive attitude and you will go far live longer...
Tell me where do you see yourself in two or three years time???
Are you going to be still heart broken...???
Or are you going to take a chance and find that man for you...???
Your choice where you go or what you do...
In my case 's different..he's a great man with great character(Macho), and smart...but his situation prevents him doing more...what hurts me 's the reject...we had plans..perhaps the situation of it, and the distance between us 's the main problem...the damage make us, us as a woman, 's to be reject for a man...he has reasons, reasons on which I'm not included...but if what I'm sure 's that he 's a very different man who sits behind a monitor, which I knew personally, 's very different...he's a loving and caring man, a man who knew how to love me in those few days that I spent with him...I don't think that things change, and I don't think that he love me in the same way that I love him...if he loved me, he forget me....
nice words...
Often, the patient wants to heal quickly, but medicine doesn't become the effect to relieve pain quickly..I don't want to wait for three years, for my wounds 're healed... I try to occupy the mind on things, things that block my feelings...I love to read, listen music, go to the movies, like travel and I love driving...I hope that my wounds heal faster..I'm trying...
You have interests...how long it takes that is totally up to you.
If you suffer too long...trust me...later in life you going to hate your self...for wasting precious time...
truth words...
I don't want to see anybody in my place, and don't want rewards for damage caused...I want the best for others...this I would not wish on my worst enemy...if he 's not for me, I hope that he'll be happy with another woman...I have seen many fall before my eyes..and the only thing I can tell u, 's that it's more terrible pain, seeing pain in others...
NO more suffering, we do not live twice......
Let your Heart lead you to the best plaqce ever!!!!!
Love you lots and a bit!!!!!!!
Your Girlfiend,
Yeap!!..God give me strength...
and thanks God for the friends...
I'm weak up!...
c-back to the black book...
Hay que dejar que los muertos lloren a sus muertos...y seguir la vida loca!!
thanks for ur kind words...At this point, u hit the nail...there 's a decision that I should take...whether to star the root, or to let blossom...