Feeling bad

As I sit here tonight, I AM

I feel almost certain now I did not get this job. My friend went for an interview today, and an hour later they called her.

One of my ex-coworkers got called the next day and was offered a position.

I was told I would be informed by mail, and I should have realized that was a BAD sign right from the begining.

I truely want to work again, and it would have been nice to work with people I know. So I guess I'm a little disappointed things didn't work out for me like they did for my 2 friends. It just hurts thats all, because I'm such a hard worker.

Being out of work for 1 1/2 years is challenging, and well I guess God knows whats best. He doesn't want me to have such a high stressed job. Or perhaps I am meant to find a 9-5 job. If I did get to work for this company I could work any hour, and I would have to bid for it. It's just frustrating, thats all.

So I'll probably cry myself to sleep tonight in self pity. God, I just hate rejection, especially when they fail to inform me and leave me hanging on pins and needles.

Ok, going to go, I haven't been sleeping well this past week, I'm most likely also overtired.

I know 1/2 the world is out of work, and I'm just worried I'll never find anything. The woman who got a call today has been unemployed for 3 years, so if anyone rightfully deserves it, I would say it should be her. I'm just trying to find a little and from some of my blogger friends.

God bless you all and thanks for cheering me up, by putting on your reading glasses and opening up your ears.