my lesson part 2

Well in June we found out i was pregnant.wow big surprise. In aug. he finally commits and asks me out, about 2weeks later on my bday he asks me to marry him. and me being stupid and naive, said yes. i said yes because i thought, as i had thought for the past 6years that i loved him and wanted nothing more than to be with him. well as if things couldnt get worse.they did. we started fighting all the time, i was extremely stressed out everyday, i always had the thought of "is he only with me cuz im pregnant?" in the back of my head, because sometimes it felt that way. well by now we were both living with my parents bcuz i wanted to b closer to family so id have help when i had the baby. this just made things worse. he was out til all hours of the night he was never home, claimed he thought my mom hated him and he couldnt stand being there. well i had the baby in feb.. In may he convinced me to move back to where his parents and my grandma all lived. said things would b better if we just got a place of our own. well we did. and things didnt get better they got worse. he kept threatening to leave, or take me to my moms. towards the end of sept. i found out i had to have surgery to get my gall bladder removed. when my mom asked me to go stay with her for a week after so she could help with the baby i said yes. while i was there i realized i couldnt be with my fiance anymore and i told him the truth. i didnt think i loved him, i dont think i ever really did. u cant love someone who is that bad to u. and yes i left out some things. like how he constantly called me names, not just at home but in front of other people. how it was ok for him to go out with friends and leave me with the baby but it wasnt ok for me. so there for everytime i went and hung out w/ friends i had the baby with me, and even then he didnt want me hanging out with them...and one of the people he hated seeing me with was my own aunt(were the same age)....needless to say i finally realized i didnt want to be treated like that.

Im sorry this is sooo long, i kno most people prob. wont even read it, but i had to write it all down.