I want to die.

i want to die, i'm bored with life, this world has nothing for me, and eternal life is like hell for me, i'm in no pain, i'm bored not motivated, i have no goals, i spent the last 2 years trying to find god but i can't he doesn't exist for me, i believe that this world is all, and i can't be bothered to make an effort at this life of mine, so my life isn't quite fair, it might be better tomorrow i just want to laugh again, but then why bother, who cares? and don't tell me GOD cares, i don't beleive he existed maybe u can help me if so that's great u probably can't oh well, why haven't i done it? maybe i won't, but i feel that as my life goes down and down i just can't be bothered, if someone tried to kill me would i stop them? probably not, oh well whatever i just need to get this stuff out, i feel a bit better thanks, who knows i may live on
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whoa...do u think after u die u can gain ur life back???its up to u....peace
Dont u think, living in this greedy world, where evey one is fighting in the name of their religion,,killing human being.....Do u think its a right place to live here
I`ve been fighting for my life the past year..chemotherapy has taken its toll on me but as long as there is breath in me i will never give up on life..you are the one responsible for your life no one else..only you can change it..try walking in my shoes for just a day and Im sure you`d change your mind pretty quick...life is what we make it...bouquet
Stop acting like a spoiled brat.Why are you blogging something so depressing?Sunday is the day we get to relax a little,check out blog,s etc.So PLEASE do me a favour,have a long hard look around you.Open your eye,s and see the poverty and hardship in your hometown.Some of your neighbours are actually the living dead.Please grow up.
PART I

viveksinha4u;
You are young still and know not about life how it is.
You want to die,because you are bored with life?
i tell you before hand and before you die,that you are going not to find any thing good after death,but only hell and judgement and great suffer that you will be sorry that you are born,WHY?
because if you kill your self or die with your will willing so,
you are not going to be saved after death, but far much more suffer you will suffer hell after death,because if you kill your life and die,is bigest crime and sin against you and against God that created you.
so that you have to pay your crime and sin for many years even hundreds or thousands years in hell !
Because God given you freely life in you, to enjoy and work for making the life happy,but because you don,t seek way to learn how to be happy,and healthy,thats why you are bored with life and want to die.
So death will gone not bring you any solution but brings you much more suffer in hell.
but if you learn how to clean your sin from God and his disciples,then you never see hell but saved and happy in heaven and earth forever with life eternal and so you will never die,death will be abolished or destroyed from you.

you say;this world has nothing for me,right this world never had any thing good for any one,why?
Because you living in prison of this world, if you go out of this prison,you will see heaven on earth and is full happy, if you can find thus things from God from heaven on earth.
so you need seek carefully and when you find, you will be so happy and saved from evil,sin and suffer.
you say:eternal life is like hell,you are so wrong,hell is never in eternal life.but ETERNAL LIFE is perfect happiness in heaven and on earth,which still you can,t find till you find a way from God how to erase your sin, and when you erased the last sin, you are able to go in heaven in eternal life for ever in full perfect happiness.
YOU SAY, YOU TRY FIND GOD,BUT YOU COULDN,T FOUND,BECAUSE HE DON,T EXIST!!!
YOU ARE SO WRONG !!!
GOD IS INVISIBLE BECAUSE OF YOUR SIN,AND BECAUSE OR OTHER SIN OF OTHER MEN.
SO YOU NEED TO LEARN FROM TRUE BOOKS ABOUT GOD,ABOUT JESUS AND ANGELS;HOW TO FORGIVE AND ERASE YOUR SIN.
THEN YOU WILL BE ABLE TO SEE:ANGELS,SAVED MEN,AND JESUS,AND GOD.
GOD IS IN HEAVEN AND ON EARTH, AND YET IS INSIDE YOU AND INSIDE EVERY MEN.YOU LIVE IN HIM AND YOU MOVE,OTHERWISE IF HE DON,T LIVE INSIDE YOU: YOU WOULD NOT BE ABLE TO LIVE AND NOR TO MOVE, BUT YOU WOULD BE LIKE DEAD,WHO CAN,T MOVE.
SO GOD EXIST SURELY,AND HE GIVEN FOOD YOU TO EAT;HE GIVEN FRUITS AND VEGETABLES AND HERBS AND GRAINS YOU TO EAT,THAT HE GROW FROM EARTH AND FILL THEM WITH LIFE TO GIVE YOU FOR FOOD!!!!!
AND SO THEN :HOW IS POSSIBLE YOU TO SAY:GOD DO NOT EXIST,AND HE DON,T CARE??SURELY YOU ARE WRONG MUCH.GOD SURELY EXIST AND SURELY CARE FOR YOU SO MUCH AND FOR EVERY MEN.FOR IF HE DIDN,T CARE FOR ONE MINUTE; YOU WOULD LOSE AT LEAST ALL HAIRS,ABILITY TO SPEAK OR WORK,OR ABILITY TO THINK ...ETC....!
SO NEVER KILL YOUR SELF,NOR LET ANY ONE KILL YOU, NOR LET YOUR SELF TO DIE IN ANY OTHER WAY, BECAUSE YOU WILL BE GUILTY SO GREAT BEFORE GOD THAT YOU LOSE LIFE WHAT GOD GIVEN YOU SO GOOD FOR YOU TO LIVE AND TO THANK HIM FOR IT AND EVERYTHING .
FOR IF GOD GIVEN YOU LIFE FREE TO YOU, YOU SHOULD USE IT FOR BE BLESSED AND HAPPY AND SAVED FROM SIN,AND NOT TO HATE IT AND KILL OR LOSE IT,THIS bad you say, DEVIL LIKE TO DO TO YOU, BECAUSE HE IS ALL EVIL WHO KILL LIFE IN MEN AND ,SO HE COMES TO STEAL,KILL AND DESTROY.SO NEVER THINK NEGATIVELY NOR BAD ABOUT LIFE OR GOD, BUT THINK POSITIVE AND GOOD HOW TO MAKE LIFE BETTER AND SO MAKE GOD AND YOUR SELF HAPPY.
WHEN YOU BELIEVE AND OBEY TRUTH OF LIFE FROM GOD,AND JESUS.
AND AWAY FROM EVIL THINGS,BUT DO GOOD AND HEALTHY THINGS;SO YOU WILL BE ABLE TO BE SAVED FROM BAD AND LIVE HAPPY AND SAFE.

WARNING:NEVER GO TO DOCTORS TO GIVE YOU MEDICINE FOR DEPRESSION
OR FOR MENTAL SICKNESS OR MENTAL DISORDERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BECAUSE THOSE MEDICINES FROM DOCTORS ARE WORSED HELL AND DESTRUCTION TO YOUR SOUL AND BODY!AND DEVIL LIVE IN THOSE MEDICINES LIKE HE LIVE IN DRUGS AND SO HE IS ALL EVIL AND TORTURE
AND SUFFER MEN SO GREATLY OF HELLS AND DESTRUCTION TO BODY AND SOUL,WHO TAKE SUCH MEDICINES.SO NEVER DO SUCH MOST TERRIBLE THING
BAD FOR YOURSELF!
BUT PRAY AND GO IN NATURE TO FIND HEALING FOR YOU FROM GOD THAT HAS GIVEN FOR YOU AND MEN IN NATURE:HERBS,FLOWERS OR FRUITS OR GRAINS OR OTHER HEALING THINGS.
SO DOCTORS AND NURSES WILL BE JUDGED FROM GOD MOST TERRIBLY EVER,
FOR THOSE TERRIBLE MEDICINES THEY GIVE AND FORCE MEN TO TAKE THAT SUCH MEDICINES ARE WORSE THAN DRUGS AND KILL AND DESTROY MEN :BODY AND SOUL.
SO DOCTORS ARE LIKE BUTCHERS,AND ARE MOST EVIL CRIMINAL IN THE WORLD,WHO GET RICH BY MONEY OF SICK PEOPLE AND THEY KILL MEN BY THEIR WORK AND MEDICINES SO BADLY IN SUFFER.
SO CRIMINALS OF WAR WHO KILL PEOPLE IN WAR ARE JUST LIKE PIECE OF HONEY COMPARE WITH MOST EVIL OF DOCTORS AND NURSES AND THEIR MEDICINES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BECAUSE DOCTORS AND NURSES ARE MOST EVIL IN THE WORLD AND SO ARE MOST GUILTY BEFORE GOD ,AND GOD WILL JUDGE THEM MOST EVER TERRIBLY IN HELL AND IN OTHER PLACES...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IS NOT GOOD AT ALL TO HAVE ANY MEDICINE FROM THEM,BECAUSE ALL INCLUDE DRUGS AND CHEMICALS AND OTHER THINGS SO DANGER.
GOD NEVER SAID TO MEN TO GO TO DOCTORS TO GET HELP!!!!!!!!!
DOCTORS ARE LIKE BUTCHERS WHO KILL ANIMALS FOR MEAT TO EAT,AND DOCTORS
ARE BUTCHERS OF MEN WHO KILL AND TAKE THEIR ORGANS TO SELL WITH MONEY!!!


NICE DAY.:PEACE.
OMG-FIELDIR!!!! barf
brother, stayin here u can at least enjoy a beer in d weekend .... if u're dead u're done ... cannot even have do that ... wtf ....

though, I understand your argument...
STOP ACTING LIKE A BABY !! STAND UP FOR YOURSELF AND WAKE UP FOR GOD'S SAKE !!!!!!
IT'S NOT ABOUT FINDING GOD OF FINDING LIFE ... GO FIND YOURSELF FIRST !!! FIND WHO YOU ARE !!
WE ALL GO THROUGH THIS TUFF LIKE AS WELL AND WE DONT JUST WAIT TILL SOMEBODY TO RESCUE US !! EVEN GOD WONT DO YOU ANYTHING IF YOU DON'T DO IT YOURSELF !! GOT IT !!!!!!!!
you dont want to die you just feeeeeeeeel like it feelings are so deceitful they come and go
get a different perspective on what you are looking at you have painted a grim picture
things are never what they seem
we cant understand everything going on in this world
take heart young man and look again teddybear
Good things always come to those who wait man. Its called life not "EASY". Never give up u stay strong and keep heading in the right direction and occasionally stop to smell the flowers or smoke from the marajuana tree. lol
life is a result of choices you have made which brings you up to where you are now..you can choose to be a victim...or be responsible for your current situation..the world is actually a beautiful place with or without godheart wings bouquet
Do u wanno use my belt please don't hesitate. I could have helped but ur too far away...About time as well since u don't have a goal in life there are too many men on this site anyway..The less men the more women.
Let us know when ur gone.....peace Send us an email when u get there...
change ur life !!!
Dear All,

Thanku very much for ur beautiful advice and response.

I m trying my best to divert my mind from killing myself.


I hope ur's all suggestion will help me a lot.


Regards,

Vivek Sinha
anelenav, so right ! cheers
When I was young, there was time I wanted to kill myself and even tried it. Did not succeed first time, but had that in mind. But I had debts and thought it would be good to pay them back, not to the bank, but to some kind people. So, I had to live to pay these debts back. Then I changed my mind, why to hurry, I will die anyway. I can live and see what happens. May be you have some debt, if not in money, then in love? May be you owe your parents? Imagine how would they suffer if you killed yourself? This world is not a perfect place, but it is all we have. May be you can do something nice to make someones life a bit better? Think about it.
If that is really your picture, you are gorgeous. That attribute alone can attract many blessings, including love. You are also young, and have the world (and your life) in front of you. If you additionally possess intelligence and good health, you are blessed indeed!

I agree with the poster above...count your blessings...because you have many. Killing yourself is never an answer to life's problems, which many people have to a far greater degree than you.

bouquet
@forestshaks
Every time you open up your big mouth it's just verbal diarrea.Like the coward you are you hide in an anonoymous state without a picture.
Is this how a man shows courage? Is this the bravery of forestshaks?
Punk,if I could get to you I'd grab you around the neck and shake you like a rubber chicken,because that's what you are.
Telling someone to do themselves in when they are feeling down is not something a man would do..."boy".
HEy,
"Dont u think, living in this greedy world, where evey one is fighting in the name of their religion,,killing human being.....Do u think its a right place to live here".

Have you ever heard a saying: energy goes where attention flows? So is in world, there is a + and there is a -. Today u chose minus, maybe tomorrow will be a plus? U know, one of the best abilities a man has is to change - to +. yay

I know, sometimes we all feel lonely.
I know, sometimes everybody hurts.
I know, sometimes just we have a bad day.
And like Marilyn Monroe sings:
"Inside of this girl who pretends to be me.
beneath of this heart is a girl no one sees.
lonely and frightened she lives in my mind.
longing for love for the love she can't find.
Nobody knows me, no one can see.
Nobody knows me, knows what i feel.
All that i wanted, all that i need
is some one to love me, to love me, to love me for meeeeeee." comfort

But believe - the best is yet to come. JUst make a list of jokes funny or cute pics photos and yr hobbies that u like for a negative day...

Boredom, my friend, depends on you. If you choose to be bored, so u are. I guess it often happens when we don`t have a direction in life, purposes which are high enough and inspiring ideals. Because there isn`t good wind for a ship that doesn`t have direction.

So I wish u to find out yr priorities and purposes and see the good point, focus on it...
Everything that`s important is inside of you, it`s written in yr heart...

Be happy
Enjoy - live laugh love
Be the change u want to see in the world
Be the person u want to be
Make decisions
Make mistakes - if u fall - at least u tried ;)



yay applause peace rolling on the floor laughing innocent
P.S:I wish u soon to say: Life is too short to be anything but HAPPY ;)
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