Will this be My Life ? Forever ?
Well , I've lost my father 4 years ago ..and since then Im taking care of my family , elder brother & a little sister and my mom ..
i have an elder sister but she's living with her husband out of the country ..
my family means everything to me .. i love them to death ..but ..
i've thinking ALOT the past few days ..will this be my life ? forever to take care of them ? cuz i forgot myself to look after them .. i work all day long till late at night and weekends so that i can give them the life they wanna have ..
IM Not COMPLAINING AT ALL , I love what i do ..That's what keeps me strong and going on ..
But what made me rethink this ..is that my mom has travelled to my sis out of the country since 4 days now ..and im all responsiable of EVERTHING !!! That kinda scared me .. cuz i was like : " What if mummy has been gone just like my father !!God forbidden .. Will I be able to take care of a family and live like that in such young age !?
My elder brother is disabled .. and my little sister needs to finish school , she is only 13 !
i cry at the middle of the night , thinking ..of this ..
What if !? will I be able to do it ? and how would I even start my life when im living for them ?? and ofcourse i would never leave them to my sister ..cuz anyways ..she's careless about us from the first place ...and my mom gave me instrucations that when she's out of this world ..that for me to take care of my sis and bro. and ofcourse i said I WILL !
and even i wanna be with someone in the future .. how will be able to control both lifes ??
I just don't know ..thoughts coming and going everywhere in my mind now ..that i just wanna freez my mind ..
Take care all
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im not thaaaaat worry ..but still .. a girl will think of stuff like that ..
yes i am goin' thru so much .. its just killing me inside that sometimes i have to work so much that im not able to be with them as well .. I don't know !!
Praying for better days to come !
Thanks for ur support
Swan
it's not about beeing kind .. they are FAMILY !! if im not there for them who will be ?
and beleive me ..im trying my best to cope !! sometimes i don't and i just cry for mercy like any human ..but the next day i wake up for a reality that and i have to deal with it
..right ?
Thanks alot for ur sweet words
Swan
what a panic? evth will be okay, dear.
ur mum will live long-long happy life, God bless her,
and ur sis wont be 13 forever, God bless her too, she cud be able to help the family pretty soon.
dont cry, just arm urself with patience and fortitude.
take care
and i wont cry that much , don't worry
may God bless u as well sweety ..
Thanks alot for ur kind support
@ John : Habibi thank you my dear ...wish you the same
Swan
Swan
just don't forget that good things happen to good people, and you are a good person ..
Maybe when your little sister grows up she can help too?
You will one day find someone who will share your life with you and will also care for the people you care for. That's how Karma works.