Ryme and Reason

I have been on this site for right at a year now, and i have never left a blog, but i decided this may be a good way to get some things off my chest. so here goes

I havn't been around much, I have been dealing with some things in my life, I have a supportive family here and it has greatly helped,

I haven't actually been seeing anyone but i have been talkin g to a guy for 7 months now, not from this site bu t another, we have talked almost every single day on the phone, i thought this was a "getting to know each other" stage, well ok he lives less than 20 miles from me, he hasn't made an effort to meet me at all, "i'm really shy and it takes me a while to work up to that" Well i have a schedule i have to meet" ok the schedule thing is understandable (somewhat), it's not like he couldn't pencil me in with in a 7 month period, he told me about a site he was on sort of like "myspace" but it's a different site, well i had created an account for this very site a while back when i had gotten an invitation form a coupl e freinds, i checked it out and thought i'll do somethin g with it later, and never got back to it, well i recieved an e-mail from the stie saying "hey youhavn't add pics or created a profile" so i went on there, i t hought well i just check out his page and see whats it's all about, i wasn' t "looking" for anythin g in particular i wasn't "snooping" OH BOY i got an eye opener, on his page this lady was sending him " I LOVE YOU's" every day i chedked out her page he is send the same to her, well I called him an d conmfronted him about it, now don't get me wrong there was no commitment between he and i, and i have no quarrel with this woman because she was and is as much unaware as i was, if she is hurt it won' t be because i did it, no wasn't in love with this guy but was hoping to meet him and see what might or might not become of it, I think this is what makes me maddest, after all the daily phone calls and the "when we meet an d if we hit it off" conversations he hasn't given me a chance to find out what so ever, when i confronted him about it he says "it makes her feel good she is a sweet lady" "you send m e those i would send them back to you" my repy to this was "if i sent those to you I woul d be lying to you" and I really don't want you lying to me" The thing is he didn't finish anything with m e b4 he started something else, i told him i woul d be his freind but i was no longer interested in finding out aobu t anything more than that, he doesn't understand how he hurt my feelings but thats ok with me. i don't have to subject myself to that kind of stuff.

I do hope that he doesn't hurt her feeling, in her heart she really believes she is in love with him and he in love with her, for her sake i do hope thats true,

should i have written her and told her what he is doing? what if he does love her? who knows!!!

sorry for being so long winded thanks for lsitening

Kat