I wander and no doubt wonder
I keep wandering around today. My apartment, picking things up and for the most part putting them back exactly where I took them from.On line, logging in here. sitting looking at an empty text box, wandering over to the forums and giggling like a loon as i add something silly and,on occasion, incomprehensible to the wondering why and fun with words threads. The best time I have had on the forums in a while.
Then pull up a poetry thread box, leave and pull an email blank up and leave that as well. Logging out in silence. Going back to my book on flyposting and genetic experimentation that leads of course to murder.
A chapter read and I go to fold and put away the laundry and cry a little because I cannot fold a T shirt.
Back to the book, back here, back to staring at the half written thoughts saved as 'in progress' just in case one day they grow legs and join the dance in my imagination. hey sometimes they do, but not today. A cup of tea is too much effort at the moment despite the gleaming order of my kitchen. Safe place amid the chaos crowding close behind my eyes.
I watched an odd movie last night. All talk, no action. called What love is. There is one line (or three) delivered near the very end that held the meaning of life for just the time it took to hear them, then it spilled away the way it always does. The gist, very roughly was: Love is a one way street going out from you, it is what you give and keep giving, not ever about what you get back.
I had an AHA! moment then Cuba Gooding spoke and the moment had been lived.
Hate when that happens!
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Well, that sure explains a lot
Must explain why I'm alone...single...without a significant other.
The AHA is that one should not expect to get anything back.
Expect nothing and you will never be disappointed!!!