what really hurts

whats hurts more then being depressed is it being obvious and still no one seems to care enough to help you or stop you from hurting yourself...
just when you think people might care..your sitting there in tears and realize that no one will try to stop you.
the people you thought would always be there for you have all vanished and once again its its come to this. you never wanted to feel this way you never asked for this pain and sometimes you wonder if you did something to deserve this hurt..
i thought i had friends who would stick by me and care i was wrong cuz when i needed them most they werent there.
its like screaming for help in a crowded room and nobody looks up. you then realize that you are all alone.
you ask for help and no one wants to help you. you say you want to end it all but nobody tries to stop you..thats what really hurts.



just some of my thoughts dont take it the wrong way i wrote this while in tears...
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I'm sure that the people in your life care,maybe they just don't know how to help you?


Have you considered talking to a psychologist? Please get help and please don't hurt yourself anymore.You seem like a lovely young lady and it would be a terrible shame if you were to do something irreversible to yourself.sad flower
You are the only one who can help you. People looking on feel helpless because they know there is nothing they can do. The strength HAS to come from within you to save yourself. Find help from the people who can help you, as recommended earlier, by maryrachelle, speak to a psychologist or a councelor.


Good luck and take care of yourselfhug sad flower
I'm eons older than u and I know how you feel. In fact the other day I cried in front of someone very close to me and they just stood staring at me...no move to hold or hug. You are definitely not alone...others go through feeling the way you do. I feel much the same at the moment.

sad flower teddybear
When you feel like that just go to bed and sleep, with a pill if you have to so you dont have to think about it. You cannot rely on people to know how you feel, you cannot even expect them to be interested or care most of the time. It is because people are selfish and dont like to see someone they know in a bad way. There will be one person who cares, there always is , find that person. If no one at all cares , it just could be your fault, because you may not have given off enough care to anyone yourself. If for instance you have lived as a selfish person dont expect anyone to be there for you.thats kind of like the rule of how it works.
At your age, whatever it is that troubles you, can be put aside by recognising you have your whole life ahead of you. You need to have dreams, achievable dreams and a wish to progress in life if you are to ever get satisfaction from life. If where you are now isnt making you happy . work toward moving from there. If people do you harm get away, be choosy of your friends , dont let them choose you. If someone is a waste of space and a pain to you then this is not a friend, move on. Learn how to move on quickly from people who offer nothing to you such as real friendship or care. Be brave, be sensible, open your eyes, keep on the ground, dont attempt to get attention to yourself but always offer attention to others. Try to get on , by surrounding yourself with happiness, getting negative influences out of your life, then you can have happiness and joy.
xjennxox, we are alone in this world. We have relatives and friends but actually it's us who have to cope with our life, nobody else. That's why I always say I am an individualist which means I want to rely firstly on myself. When I had really bad moments in my life I realized that I didn't have the right to fall in depression because it would be the end. Try to stop the depression before it has obsessed you because then it would be harder to get out of it...

Elaborate some way that is best for you, because in life you will have challenging and hard times, so you have to be ready to react in the best way for you, saving your mental and physical health... bouquet
It's very hard when your sensitive and going through a hard time.

What makes it more difficult is that others around you are just too busy worrying about themselves. To make it even more difficult, many of us are so unique that we just don't seem to feel like we belong here, there or anywhere. We feel misunderstood most of the time. When many are so insensitive around us, it appears they are just biological robots with no soul, that can't see the beauty behind so many things, they are too busy playing corporate status, political, and emotional manipulative games to service only their self-centered reality.

Be comforted in that you are not alone and to seek-out like minded individuals and that even when you appear to be alone, you are not, and spend some time seeking inward for all the answers can be found within, with time and patience.

Spend some quality time with yourself. Go to the local library or book store and look for books and DVDs about people who hurt themselves. Read their stories and perhaps they can shine some light on what is happening to and around you. Take short walks outdoors and look at nature. Empty your mind, look at the natural beauty around you and get yourself to expand your consciousness beyond yourself.

God bless!
hug bouquet
People in the mental healthy profession can only get so emotionally invested in the lives of their clients.They are not there to be your best friend,pat your head,hold you,cry with you, and say it will be alright.They are there to give you the tools to find your way out of the dark place you are in.


They are actual professionals who have studies the issues you are currently going through.They have worked with people who have gone through what you are going through.They know how to help you.Family and friends as much as they love you,are not mental health professionals and can't show you the way out.


Please for your sake consider going to see a psychologist or psychiatrist.

If you had a broken leg would you expect your family and friends to set it for you? No of course not.There is something broken emotionally inside of you and only a professional can fix it.
Jenn….I feel for you. It sounds like you are feeling alone, heartbroken and crying out for love and healing. This intense sadness and depression makes feel isolated and it feels like your life has no worth. But you are precious and your life has more value than you can ever imagine.

The Lord says, "Since you were precious in My sight, You have been honored, And I have loved you" (Isaiah 43: 4). God loves you and will never leave you, even if everyone else abandons you. As Rick Warren said, "You are not an accident. Your birth was no mistake or mishap, and your life is no fluke of nature………..It is not fate, nor chance, nor luck, nor coincidence that you are breathing at this very moment"

You were created with a purpose to bring your light and love in this world. Don't give up reaching for professional help and praying that God will direct you. Yes, there are many who may not care, but there are also a few who can support you.

You have character and substance because you are brave enough to cry for help. You have strength because you are seeking help. You have wisdom, because you are wise enough to recognize that you should not give up that easily.

I admire you and encourage you. Don't give up seeking support and someday you will give that support to those who felt the same way as you do.
xjenn I agree with maryrachelle. I saw a counsellor when I was depressed. She gave me the tools to help myself and I haven't looked back. At that time in my life I couldn't talk to family or friends and felt alone. This counsellor sat and listened and didn't judge. She gave me feed back when I saw her as to how she thought I was progressing. When I first saw her I wore dark clothes but as time went on my choice of clothes became brighter. She pointed out to me that I had a habit of wearing dark clothes when I felt low, something I hadn't noticed but she was right. I saw her for 8 months and haven't seen a counsellor since. As maryrachelle says these people give you the tools to help yourself and this lady gave me the tools I needed. Yes the answer lies within you but sometimes people like counsellors and other health care professionals can help us by giving us the tools we need to find the answers.
LoveisFree explained that so well.

Try to feel your yourself that could helps.

Good luck!

teddybear
Xjennoxox .. I want to give you an awesomely big but very gentle hug, and tell you .. that I care! I used to be a self harmer when I got depressed and could not find the words or the strategies to cope, and nobody else seemed to care. Been there, done that, got the Pepsi Max to prove it!
Some people who are depressed do NOT want help. Even more so, they push their loved ones away, and treat them cruelly. They'd rather wallow in their misery then let someone in, then let someone love them. Very sad.. crying
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